In the churches that I end up working in/for.
The church in Halifax that I worked at while in Dal was an inner-city missions church that worked directly with & for homeless men. While I didn't agree with everything that the church did, I did agree that they were at least trying...hard...and making some in-roads.
For the most part, I enjoyed my time there. I never felt ill-at-ease around the workings of the church. Often times in the winter, I would go to choir practice on Thursday nights, put on a pot of coffee and let the guys and gals come in off the street to warm up a bit and grab a hot cup of coffee. They appreciated it immensely and I thought then and still beleive to this day that I was actually more protected because of it...some times when I didn't have a ride home with one of the choir members, they would walk me past Gottigen to the commons to make sure that I could get home safely.
I didn't know their names, but there are a few that I remember still...fondly.
I was at St. Marks for 4.5 years. That church was so not an inner-city church, nor did it cater to missions or needs of others. That is a church that is comprised of a lot of people that would not step foot in to a room that had a dirty, smelly street person. They would ask them to leave and certainly wouldn't have made them coffee! It may have changed since I left, but during the time I was there, they wouldn't have allowed them in the sanctuary.
I realized this week that I am in a similar situation again with the church that I have agreed to tend the music in. It is definitely an "inner-city" church and it is making an effort to be a missions church. They started a program almost 2 years ago where they have lunch on Fridays for the high schoolers uptown. Flapjacks & bacon. While not all the teens that go there are needy, they are at least bringing in some teens in to a church. This was prompted because there was a core group of teens who was doing drugs at the back door of the church. They wanted to talk to the kids, but they wouldn't come in. The only way they would come in was for coffee and/or food.
This past Sunday morning while I was getting ready for mornign service around 9:50am, there was screaming and shouting from the back of the church. The minister & I were chatting and the janitor came in to ask the minister to go with him out back as there was a man and I woman going at each other. He said they were "e-tards". I knew exactly what he meant. The minister, however, did not. The minister asked for a clarification of what he meant by "e-tard" before he went out in to the fray. I interjected and said...they were coming down off an ecstasy high. The janitor was duly surprised and impressed. He said "exactly". The minister said that he woudl go out with him, but perhaps it isn't to be assumed their state.
The minister is not the minister to deal with this type of missions church, but there are a few people who work there that are familiar...they were street and have made some changes to their lives. The congregation as a whole is older (think 65+) and they can not understand the desire of the teen interventions and lunch program, nor would they ever understand the "e-tard" concept.
I got it right away. Does that make me good or bad?
Either way, I have realized that I have come back to a place where I am at a very "gritty" place spiritually (literally). There must be a reason why I am put in to such situations. I haven't figured out exactly why or what it is I'm suppossed to do, but I have been brought to another "street church", so I do want to figure out...why, even if I don't figure out what.
I think it's a good first step forward making that realization this week. Now to figure out what to do next!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
A Review Of New Hotel Experience
Van & I went away for a mini-vacation to cold and windy Dartmouth, NS the past couple of days.
I have to preface this post by saying it's a good thing we had our first impressions when we did!
We stayed at the newest hotel in the area, the Hampton Inn & Suites at Dartmouth Crossing. It is 7 floors and was opened approximately 10 months ago. My biggest concern was finding it - not a real difficulty once I got there and saw things. Plus 1 for the hotel!
The parking lot is rather small and there are several spots that are marked for special parking that made getting a parking spot a bit difficult (i.e. 1 spot listed 3rd from the door for "Hybrid Vehicle Parking Only"...WTF?! & Employee of the month parking on top of the standard wheelchair parking spaces). Also, it was poorly plowed. Majority of the end spaces were not fully plowed and most of the lines sectioning off the parking lot were not visible due to the poor plow job. The spaces were a bit on the small side considering people would probably want room to open the car doors fully to extract luggage, etc. and there wasn't really the room for that. There were alternate parking spaces around back, which was great when we were staying in a room facing that way. Overall parking though was Minus 1 for the hotel.
Upon arrival, we were impressed with the hotel lobby's atmosphere and friendliness of the staff. Everytime we went through the lobby (which was surprisingly, a LOT) we were always greeted politely and there was always someone cleaning & mopping the floors due to the salt and sand being tracked in.
The check in was seamless and quick and the elevators extremely fast (+1 for the hotel)! The hallways were immaculate (as they should be for a new hotel) and we commented on how spongy/slippery the carpets were in the hallways because they were still so new and clean!
The also have a 24h tea, coffee & hotchocolate bar set up across from the guest services desk and a 24h suite treats rooms behind the check in desk where you can purchase missing toiletries, snacks, pop and even microwavable dinners! (+1 for the free Tazo tea & hotchocolate bar)!
The room was an interesting layout, but they are built for long-term tenants with a kitchenette and living area beside the standard amenities (+1 for the kitchenette, including the microwavable popcorn, Tazo Tea & coffee maker).
What was odd for us, was the bathroom set up...the sink, hairdryer, etc. was outside the bathroom. I am simply not a fan of using the toilet, then having to open a door/touch things before I even have the ability to wash my hands (-1 for the hotel).
While I unloaded a few things in the kitchenette area, Van scoped out the bathroom and said to me that it looked strangely familiar, but I didn't really pay any attention. As I sat on the toilet shortly thereafter though, I understood what he was referencing. I realized that it was a stand up shower stall only...no tub. I live without a tub in my home and had not realized how much I had been looking forward to taking a bath until I nearly started to cry upon realizing there was no tub in the room! (-1 for the hotel)
We went about our business the rest of the afternoon and early evening and decided to ask upon arrival back at the hotel whether they had rooms with tubs in them. We were informed by an awesome desk clerk named Jessica that the only rooms that didn't have tubs was the type of room we had - the King rooms. The Queen room all had tubs in them. That was odd to me that the more expensive rooms didn't have a tub! Anyway, she was awesome enough to offer to exchange our King room for a Queen room and we did protest at first, then I decided that no, I would really love a hot soak! So, she said no problem as she had a room available on the 3rd floor and offered to send a bell boy up to assist us in moving rooms. We went up to our King room, which was overlooking the highway on the 2nd floor and packed up our stuff, waiting for the clerk to send him up with our new room keys. (+1 for being willing to transfer us to a different room)
The boy arrived with a cart and card keys to assist us in the move. He gave me the key cards and attached to the cards was a lovely note from Jessica "Mr & Mrs Russell, I have moved you to room 702 instead as there are teams on every floor tonight except this one and this way you can experience a more relaxing bubble bath and night." I LOVE JESSICA!!! (+ a thousand for the thoughtfulness of this employee)
The Bell Boy asked us why we were moving rooms - was there a problem and we told him not really, except that there wasn't a bathtub. He stopped and turned to us and said, "We have room without bathtubs?!" LOL!! Classic! Of course, poor little bugger had only been working there 2 weeks! heheh (+1 for the bell boy who did his job well and made me laugh out loud)
So, up we went...The room was on the complete other end of the hotel and on the other side of the hotel, overlooking the entire Dartmouth Crossing. I have to say it was very beautiful looking out over all the lights from up so high!
We got moved and I went down to move the car from back to front and stopped to thank Jessica personally and offered her a tip for her good job. She refused it and when I insisted, she asked that I put it in the Haiti jug as they were raising money to donate to haiti. (+1 for the employee refusing to take the cash and putting it toward the fundraiser)
The next morning, breakfast was included and it included a hot breakfast component. That morning it was eggs and ham slices. There was also bread & bagels available to be toasted, apple, orange and cranberry juice to drink as well as tea, coffee & water. Muffins, croissants, yogurt, fruit and cereal were also available to eat. It was a lovely set up and the dinig area was one long communal table in the middle with smaller table off to each side. It was quiet and the staff overseeing the breakfast was on her toes! (+1 for the hot items, +1 for the overall selection and +1 for the dining area and alert staff)
Our second night's experience was not as good however. That being said, we can't really blame the hotel for the issues that I had as a whole. When we got back to the hotel the 2nd night, we wanted to get a hot chocolate to take up to the room because it was freezing cold and we weren't feeling so great, but upon entering the lobby we were inundated by kids...more specifically 10 - 16 year old girls and some adults who were not doing much to keep them under control. The pool with 180' water slide is at the back end of the lobby, so the kids were running in and out of the pool area and the parents/guardians were mostly on the outside of the glass windows talking and not watching much. They were ill dressed for a hotel lobby and when we went to the tea bar, they were down to a precious few cups and lids and were completely out of hot chocolate (wonder why? Well, I dont' because that's the only thing the kids would drink from there!) (-1 for the hotel running out of hot chocolate and -1 for the hotel not to make the kids stay in the pool area or make the parents pay more attention to said kids)
The hotel was hosting the participants of a ringuette tournament. Crap.
Then, there was the running races in the hallway until after midnight. Then, this morning when we went down for breakfast, the place was completely packed. Not one empty seat to sit in PLUS there was a line up to even get near the food. The hotel had run out of the hot breakfast items (which were pancakes and sausage patties) (-1 for hotel running out of hot food, but not really their fault) and they were doign their best to keep the food coming. By the time they had refilled the hot food, the line had disintegrated into vultures swooping in on their kill. It was scary and sad all at the same time.
The place was absolutely trashed. The jars of cereal were impossible for the staff to keep up with and the cereal had run low due to what appeared to be mass amounts of it being strewn around the area. They had run out of cups for the juice and by the time I realized that there was no milk to put in the cereal I had chosen, I had had it with the insanity and chucked my bowl in the garbage and left. I think the employee running the breakfast felt the same way. She looked like she was going to burst into tears at any moment. I got pissed and headed up to the room. I feel that the hotel probably could have thought a bit better in planning for this morning's breakfast since they knew there were teams there for the night and really, they should have had an extra person or two manning the breakfast area this morning. (-1 for hotel's lack of advance planning)
Overall, I would recommend the hotel...on convenience and cleanliness alone with 2 caveats...I probably won't stay there again on a Friday or Saturday night and book a Queen room! LOL!!
I have to preface this post by saying it's a good thing we had our first impressions when we did!
We stayed at the newest hotel in the area, the Hampton Inn & Suites at Dartmouth Crossing. It is 7 floors and was opened approximately 10 months ago. My biggest concern was finding it - not a real difficulty once I got there and saw things. Plus 1 for the hotel!
The parking lot is rather small and there are several spots that are marked for special parking that made getting a parking spot a bit difficult (i.e. 1 spot listed 3rd from the door for "Hybrid Vehicle Parking Only"...WTF?! & Employee of the month parking on top of the standard wheelchair parking spaces). Also, it was poorly plowed. Majority of the end spaces were not fully plowed and most of the lines sectioning off the parking lot were not visible due to the poor plow job. The spaces were a bit on the small side considering people would probably want room to open the car doors fully to extract luggage, etc. and there wasn't really the room for that. There were alternate parking spaces around back, which was great when we were staying in a room facing that way. Overall parking though was Minus 1 for the hotel.
Upon arrival, we were impressed with the hotel lobby's atmosphere and friendliness of the staff. Everytime we went through the lobby (which was surprisingly, a LOT) we were always greeted politely and there was always someone cleaning & mopping the floors due to the salt and sand being tracked in.
The check in was seamless and quick and the elevators extremely fast (+1 for the hotel)! The hallways were immaculate (as they should be for a new hotel) and we commented on how spongy/slippery the carpets were in the hallways because they were still so new and clean!
The also have a 24h tea, coffee & hotchocolate bar set up across from the guest services desk and a 24h suite treats rooms behind the check in desk where you can purchase missing toiletries, snacks, pop and even microwavable dinners! (+1 for the free Tazo tea & hotchocolate bar)!
The room was an interesting layout, but they are built for long-term tenants with a kitchenette and living area beside the standard amenities (+1 for the kitchenette, including the microwavable popcorn, Tazo Tea & coffee maker).
What was odd for us, was the bathroom set up...the sink, hairdryer, etc. was outside the bathroom. I am simply not a fan of using the toilet, then having to open a door/touch things before I even have the ability to wash my hands (-1 for the hotel).
While I unloaded a few things in the kitchenette area, Van scoped out the bathroom and said to me that it looked strangely familiar, but I didn't really pay any attention. As I sat on the toilet shortly thereafter though, I understood what he was referencing. I realized that it was a stand up shower stall only...no tub. I live without a tub in my home and had not realized how much I had been looking forward to taking a bath until I nearly started to cry upon realizing there was no tub in the room! (-1 for the hotel)
We went about our business the rest of the afternoon and early evening and decided to ask upon arrival back at the hotel whether they had rooms with tubs in them. We were informed by an awesome desk clerk named Jessica that the only rooms that didn't have tubs was the type of room we had - the King rooms. The Queen room all had tubs in them. That was odd to me that the more expensive rooms didn't have a tub! Anyway, she was awesome enough to offer to exchange our King room for a Queen room and we did protest at first, then I decided that no, I would really love a hot soak! So, she said no problem as she had a room available on the 3rd floor and offered to send a bell boy up to assist us in moving rooms. We went up to our King room, which was overlooking the highway on the 2nd floor and packed up our stuff, waiting for the clerk to send him up with our new room keys. (+1 for being willing to transfer us to a different room)
The boy arrived with a cart and card keys to assist us in the move. He gave me the key cards and attached to the cards was a lovely note from Jessica "Mr & Mrs Russell, I have moved you to room 702 instead as there are teams on every floor tonight except this one and this way you can experience a more relaxing bubble bath and night." I LOVE JESSICA!!! (+ a thousand for the thoughtfulness of this employee)
The Bell Boy asked us why we were moving rooms - was there a problem and we told him not really, except that there wasn't a bathtub. He stopped and turned to us and said, "We have room without bathtubs?!" LOL!! Classic! Of course, poor little bugger had only been working there 2 weeks! heheh (+1 for the bell boy who did his job well and made me laugh out loud)
So, up we went...The room was on the complete other end of the hotel and on the other side of the hotel, overlooking the entire Dartmouth Crossing. I have to say it was very beautiful looking out over all the lights from up so high!
We got moved and I went down to move the car from back to front and stopped to thank Jessica personally and offered her a tip for her good job. She refused it and when I insisted, she asked that I put it in the Haiti jug as they were raising money to donate to haiti. (+1 for the employee refusing to take the cash and putting it toward the fundraiser)
The next morning, breakfast was included and it included a hot breakfast component. That morning it was eggs and ham slices. There was also bread & bagels available to be toasted, apple, orange and cranberry juice to drink as well as tea, coffee & water. Muffins, croissants, yogurt, fruit and cereal were also available to eat. It was a lovely set up and the dinig area was one long communal table in the middle with smaller table off to each side. It was quiet and the staff overseeing the breakfast was on her toes! (+1 for the hot items, +1 for the overall selection and +1 for the dining area and alert staff)
Our second night's experience was not as good however. That being said, we can't really blame the hotel for the issues that I had as a whole. When we got back to the hotel the 2nd night, we wanted to get a hot chocolate to take up to the room because it was freezing cold and we weren't feeling so great, but upon entering the lobby we were inundated by kids...more specifically 10 - 16 year old girls and some adults who were not doing much to keep them under control. The pool with 180' water slide is at the back end of the lobby, so the kids were running in and out of the pool area and the parents/guardians were mostly on the outside of the glass windows talking and not watching much. They were ill dressed for a hotel lobby and when we went to the tea bar, they were down to a precious few cups and lids and were completely out of hot chocolate (wonder why? Well, I dont' because that's the only thing the kids would drink from there!) (-1 for the hotel running out of hot chocolate and -1 for the hotel not to make the kids stay in the pool area or make the parents pay more attention to said kids)
The hotel was hosting the participants of a ringuette tournament. Crap.
Then, there was the running races in the hallway until after midnight. Then, this morning when we went down for breakfast, the place was completely packed. Not one empty seat to sit in PLUS there was a line up to even get near the food. The hotel had run out of the hot breakfast items (which were pancakes and sausage patties) (-1 for hotel running out of hot food, but not really their fault) and they were doign their best to keep the food coming. By the time they had refilled the hot food, the line had disintegrated into vultures swooping in on their kill. It was scary and sad all at the same time.
The place was absolutely trashed. The jars of cereal were impossible for the staff to keep up with and the cereal had run low due to what appeared to be mass amounts of it being strewn around the area. They had run out of cups for the juice and by the time I realized that there was no milk to put in the cereal I had chosen, I had had it with the insanity and chucked my bowl in the garbage and left. I think the employee running the breakfast felt the same way. She looked like she was going to burst into tears at any moment. I got pissed and headed up to the room. I feel that the hotel probably could have thought a bit better in planning for this morning's breakfast since they knew there were teams there for the night and really, they should have had an extra person or two manning the breakfast area this morning. (-1 for hotel's lack of advance planning)
Overall, I would recommend the hotel...on convenience and cleanliness alone with 2 caveats...I probably won't stay there again on a Friday or Saturday night and book a Queen room! LOL!!
Monday, January 18, 2010
People, in general, are selfish
People, in general, are selfish. When you sign up for lessons at E's studio, you sign a contract. Part of the contract states that if you are sick, please do not come to your lesson because you may infect those that are around you in close quarters (like your teacher for one).
Last week, 2 students came that were sick, sick, sick. One of them a child of a general practitioner. I will grant you that the doctor was away and the child was being driven around by friends and family, but when the child can not see due to the eyes watering or breathe due to the nose running, it's a good clue that the child should not be going out in public as a whole and should be in bed! But no...these people bring the child to her private piano lesson (with me) and a group vocal lesson (with E & 5 other kids)!! Come on!! Morons!!
Then on Tuesdays my first student is a 4 year old. A 4 year old who can't blow his own nose. A 4 year old who, like all other 4 year olds don't know the warning signs of a sneeze. Again, the kids eyes were puffy and watery from a miserable cold and his nose was running like a tap, but because it was the 2nd lesson ever, the mother didn't want him to miss it and appear like a slacker! OMG!! Instead, the kid who at 4 doesn't know what signs he has before he sneezes, sneezes all over me!!!
Oh yeah...I hate kids at the best of time, but having a kid sneeze all over me REALLY doesn't do anyone any good.
Thursday morning at 5:10am, I woke up with a burning sore throat and a stuffed up nose. I have a husband who is immune deficient and I have a concert on jan. 31st to sing for and we are suppossed to be rehearsing actively. Oh! I am also slef-employed without medical coverage, so I do not get sick time.
People, in general, are selfish. When you bring your child to their lesson with them being sick, they are endangering those around them in tight quarters (like other students, but mainly the teacher) and I'd bet money that these people are not withotu sick day or sick pay like I am/we are. It is very selfish of people to put their interests above the interests of the whole studio, especially after being asked not to do that exact thing.
The main reason they do this, I beleive is two-fold. 1) The parent doesn't want to deal with the sick child and if they ignore the illness or make them continue to do their scheduled things then the parent's life is not disrupted and 2) the missed lesson due to the child being sick is forfeited (sp?) in that studio. If you are sick, you still pay for the lesson and a make-up lesson is not offered.
I would rather offer a make up lesson than to be putting myself or my husband or my income at risk by selfish people!
Last week, 2 students came that were sick, sick, sick. One of them a child of a general practitioner. I will grant you that the doctor was away and the child was being driven around by friends and family, but when the child can not see due to the eyes watering or breathe due to the nose running, it's a good clue that the child should not be going out in public as a whole and should be in bed! But no...these people bring the child to her private piano lesson (with me) and a group vocal lesson (with E & 5 other kids)!! Come on!! Morons!!
Then on Tuesdays my first student is a 4 year old. A 4 year old who can't blow his own nose. A 4 year old who, like all other 4 year olds don't know the warning signs of a sneeze. Again, the kids eyes were puffy and watery from a miserable cold and his nose was running like a tap, but because it was the 2nd lesson ever, the mother didn't want him to miss it and appear like a slacker! OMG!! Instead, the kid who at 4 doesn't know what signs he has before he sneezes, sneezes all over me!!!
Oh yeah...I hate kids at the best of time, but having a kid sneeze all over me REALLY doesn't do anyone any good.
Thursday morning at 5:10am, I woke up with a burning sore throat and a stuffed up nose. I have a husband who is immune deficient and I have a concert on jan. 31st to sing for and we are suppossed to be rehearsing actively. Oh! I am also slef-employed without medical coverage, so I do not get sick time.
People, in general, are selfish. When you bring your child to their lesson with them being sick, they are endangering those around them in tight quarters (like other students, but mainly the teacher) and I'd bet money that these people are not withotu sick day or sick pay like I am/we are. It is very selfish of people to put their interests above the interests of the whole studio, especially after being asked not to do that exact thing.
The main reason they do this, I beleive is two-fold. 1) The parent doesn't want to deal with the sick child and if they ignore the illness or make them continue to do their scheduled things then the parent's life is not disrupted and 2) the missed lesson due to the child being sick is forfeited (sp?) in that studio. If you are sick, you still pay for the lesson and a make-up lesson is not offered.
I would rather offer a make up lesson than to be putting myself or my husband or my income at risk by selfish people!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Meeting at 10am
on a Monday...I'm not sure why or what possessed me to say that I would be happy to host a group of teachers at my home tomorrow (Monday) morning at 10am. I'm not fit for human consumption most days by 10am, certainly not when I'm in an all-encompassing funk for a few weeks.
This should be fun!
This should be fun!
Monday, January 04, 2010
I didn't make any resolutions but
I didn't make any new years resolutions. I don't like them on principle, yet I find myself in a unique situation this new year.
This year we got royally dumped on with snow. In the past 2 days I have shovelled 4 times. Shovelled and scooped. I prefer scooping overall as you move more snow with that one effort, but it is more walking (as I like to make my ramps as far away from the space I need cleared as possible) and it's a bitch on my shoulders (I've been having shoulder problems since October.
Today is the first day back to work and I didn't get any new clothes for Christmas - a first. So I put on my old dark jeans and they are looser than I remembered. So, I decided to weigh myself this morning...down 3 lbs.
Now, 3 lbs isn't a lot in comparison to what I have on my body, but it's a start. Considering I did nothing different to my diet, this is just shovelling weight loss.
So, I've decided to take it and try to keep the ball rolling.
I had breakfast this morning (I hate breakfast) and I chose low salt oatmeal.
I'm having chicken and veggies with pasta for lunch, which I am going to try to have as my "big meal" of the day and then I'm taking carrot stix, an apple and 2 clementines for supper between students tonight @ Elain's.
I have also decided to cut back to 1 cup of orange pekoe tea per day. If I want tea other than that, I must have herbal tea.
When I get home tonight at 9pm, I will do some modified exercise as my left hip is killing me - like a pinched nerve.
Perhaps that will also help me sleep better as well.
Part of my game plan today will also be pre-planning the rest of my week's "big meals" to try to stay on this track.
While I didn't plan to do this, I'll take the jumpstart if I can get it!
This year we got royally dumped on with snow. In the past 2 days I have shovelled 4 times. Shovelled and scooped. I prefer scooping overall as you move more snow with that one effort, but it is more walking (as I like to make my ramps as far away from the space I need cleared as possible) and it's a bitch on my shoulders (I've been having shoulder problems since October.
Today is the first day back to work and I didn't get any new clothes for Christmas - a first. So I put on my old dark jeans and they are looser than I remembered. So, I decided to weigh myself this morning...down 3 lbs.
Now, 3 lbs isn't a lot in comparison to what I have on my body, but it's a start. Considering I did nothing different to my diet, this is just shovelling weight loss.
So, I've decided to take it and try to keep the ball rolling.
I had breakfast this morning (I hate breakfast) and I chose low salt oatmeal.
I'm having chicken and veggies with pasta for lunch, which I am going to try to have as my "big meal" of the day and then I'm taking carrot stix, an apple and 2 clementines for supper between students tonight @ Elain's.
I have also decided to cut back to 1 cup of orange pekoe tea per day. If I want tea other than that, I must have herbal tea.
When I get home tonight at 9pm, I will do some modified exercise as my left hip is killing me - like a pinched nerve.
Perhaps that will also help me sleep better as well.
Part of my game plan today will also be pre-planning the rest of my week's "big meals" to try to stay on this track.
While I didn't plan to do this, I'll take the jumpstart if I can get it!
Sunday, January 03, 2010
lurking and snooping = slurking?
With FB's changes to privacy many people have not realized that they have to change their privacy settings, even if they clicked the pop up that said "keep all my preferences the way they were".
I can get on to most people's walls and see most people's pictures that I wasn't able to see before...yes, I've tried to snoop previously.
I have gone to check out people with whom I haven't spoken to in literally years. There were reasons why we stopped speaking and they are still valid, however I often wonder where they are, what are they doing, how are they doing, etc.
It has been an interesting experience to say the least.
I found an unreasonable sense of satisfaction seeing pictures of someone who had gained a large amount of weight since last I saw them. Especially since they were not the most kind regarding my weight/size.
I was surprised to find someone whom I least expected to pro-create has a child.
I was shocked to find someone had passed away due to a vehicular accident.
I was disappointed to find someone doing very well for themselves. Seriously disappointed.
In each instance that I was able to go on to someone's FB page and snoop around their current life I found myself comparing. I found myself wondering whether or not where they are now and where I am now are comparable. Are they married like me? Do they have kids? Are they working a good job? Have they gone away somewhere warm for a vacation? Do they own their own house? Do they have a new car?
We've all taken separate paths and gone different ways for a reason so why I want to know is something I'm not really certain about. I'm not certain also that comparisons are fair but overall, it doesn't do much for ego or esteem.
I can get on to most people's walls and see most people's pictures that I wasn't able to see before...yes, I've tried to snoop previously.
I have gone to check out people with whom I haven't spoken to in literally years. There were reasons why we stopped speaking and they are still valid, however I often wonder where they are, what are they doing, how are they doing, etc.
It has been an interesting experience to say the least.
I found an unreasonable sense of satisfaction seeing pictures of someone who had gained a large amount of weight since last I saw them. Especially since they were not the most kind regarding my weight/size.
I was surprised to find someone whom I least expected to pro-create has a child.
I was shocked to find someone had passed away due to a vehicular accident.
I was disappointed to find someone doing very well for themselves. Seriously disappointed.
In each instance that I was able to go on to someone's FB page and snoop around their current life I found myself comparing. I found myself wondering whether or not where they are now and where I am now are comparable. Are they married like me? Do they have kids? Are they working a good job? Have they gone away somewhere warm for a vacation? Do they own their own house? Do they have a new car?
We've all taken separate paths and gone different ways for a reason so why I want to know is something I'm not really certain about. I'm not certain also that comparisons are fair but overall, it doesn't do much for ego or esteem.
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