Ostara

I missed posting this on the actual day, but, better late than never, right? :)

Ostara is a time of fertility and sacred balance between night and day. Ostara begins the process when stored energy bursts forth in to fruition. Feasting depends on the remaining stores of the last season's harvest, so it is not as abundant as some other sabbats. The focus of Ostara is renewal, expansion and the returns of the Sun's life-giving warmth.

Early flower, eggs and rabbits are al symbols of Ostara. The ancient custom of coloring and hiding eggs and rabbit symbolism both remain popular today. It is a time of celebration as the light tips the balance and overtakes night, lenthens the days and brings antiipation of the return to the growing time.

Herbs are planted and the chores of making the soil ready for the coming planting time are begun at Ostara. houses and lands are cleared of the winter's refuse, repairs are made, and spring cleaning is thorough and complete. This is a time of new beginnings and possibilities. new ventures are begun, new relationships are formed and the life forces of the earth begin to awaken. Ostara is a time of deep gratitude.

by Abby Willowroot, as poublished in Llewellyn's Witches' Datebook 2007.

I guess that means I had better get to cleaning the house really well, not just cleaning it at all! :)

Tired and Frustrated

Why is it there is no rest for the weary? I'm not even wicked. Just Weary.

I'm doing some research on Bi-Polar Disorder. Interesting findings.

I did a few billets on Saturday upon request and didn't come close to the person who was doing the requesting, but I think it may be something close for others.

I have to get together with the ladies soon. We're all in various states of need. :(

I understand that another friend in Germany ended up in hospital due to High Blood Pressure. I have just been through a rash of tests for mine as it is way out of control :( But, I haven't landed in the hospital yet...work may put me there yet, but not quite yet :)

Was hoping to have M&J over for dinner before he heads back to SoCal, but it doesn't appear to be a possibility with work being what it is. :(

I want to do the same for C&P too, but that's highly unlikely and I hate to mix business with pleasure because it never turns out well in the end. :(

Oh well. Have to take risks...right?

Water

A water logged basement just caps off a glorious day from hell. At least my father has a wet/dry vac that is now in my basement and taking a break from sucking up an inch of water.

Sometimes it feels like I just can't get ahead.

Getting there

Still tired, and my voice is still raspy and soft, I'm getting better. I feel better. I just need to stay on the eating better. That will help the energy level.

I've got a light night of teaching on the back end of March Break, but I have to teach tomorrow night full up as well :(

I've got a dr's appt. Thursday morning that I have forgotten to tell work about. :( I've got to remember to ask him for a massage script.

My student is here, so I'll be back later.

My Mother

Is too funny...they are bored at work, so teh boys set her up on the internet at ebay and she called to ask me how to buy soemthing. Instead of me trying to talk her through setting up and account (never mind the fact that she doesn't like putting her credit card on the internet for anything) I told her to just get me the item #'s (no small task) and I'd order them for her and she can pay me back! At elast it was something small (Italian charms) once we did that, she's now looking at the rings (I don't have the money in the bank to cover those!) EEK! She's already an ebay addict!!! heheh

Still no voice

Many are rejoicing at the fact that I still have no voice! I went back to the hospital yesterday because I was feeling that much more wretched, but apparently there wasn't any more they could do. In fact he thinks it's viral and that the medicine I have won't help, so we'll see.

At least I got 2 hours straight sleep before waking up due to coughing fits, so I must be getting better! :)

New neighbours moving in to one of the apartments next door. They're really loud moving in and they don't look...healthy...if you know what I mean? But, we'll see. So far it's only a bed from a trailer on the back of a beat up blue and black van. Can't judge a book by it's cover, right?

So, with regards to the previous post, I'm a hater not a lover, I ahve been going through a period of time where I hate just about everything and anything. It's ironic since we're getting more help at work (they've hired on more leads and another Supervisor), the work is expanding (we're renovating the upstairs of the building and hoping to move upstairs by the end of March), I got a raise (which simply puts me in another tax bracket - I don't see any more money) and in most people's eyes all is good and yet, I find I hate everything...I hate my job, I hate the building, I hate the fact that we're renovating (lots of noise and interruptions to our current calls and customers) I hate the fact that while I'm making more money than I ever have, I'm farther behind in the money department, and I have no idea why since the bills aren't any different than before! I hate the weather, I hate the shovelling, I hate this town, I hate my body, I hate my weight, I hate my car (especially in the snow). It feels like basically the only thing that I don't seem to hate right now is my husband (which is a good thing!)

I'd love to get away for a trip, but I've got committments that I can't get out of (playing for a student for her university music auditions) and no money, no ability to get any money either. It's my own fault (didn't pay the taxman on time, so payments throughout the year kind of drag you down) so I have no one to blame for my misery other than myself, but it just seems that I will never see lighter time, fun times or happy times again. I don't feel like I can spend money on anything more than the necessaities and movies or travel is way too much of a luxury to even contemplate, but I am afraid that if this continues for what it appears it will continu for (a significant amount of time - probably more than another year) I will go insane. Ah well. That's life, right?

I didn't want this blog to be about pissing and moaning. It was meant to be a place where I could express my spiritual side, so this is the last that I will post about this BS so as not to taint it further. A distraction per se from the reality of my life :)

Hard way to get time off work

So, being sick and full of infectino is a hard way to get time off work. :( I have to say this past week has been a bit rough. Had a shit end to a party on Saturday night past, which basically started off the new shit week. I found my throat to be a bit raw on Sunday, but thought it was because I had been up too late. As the day progressed, the throat got worse and a headache came into play. By teh time I got ready for bed, I coudln't get warm.

Woke up Monday and had the headache and the soare throat, but it wasn't too bad. Got to work and realized that I was in a complete daze...brain too thick to think straight and that there were at least 3 others with teh same symptoms. BOOOO!!! (Yes, all were at the same party Sat. night).

Tuesday, I went to work with a burning hot marble stuck in my throat, but the headache was gone. Little did I know thatthe fever however wasn't. :(

So, Tuesday night at 3:20am I woke up and could barely swallow. Seriously considered going to the ER in the dead of night, but realized that they woudln't get me in before morning anyway, so just tried to medicate myself. Little did I know that when I tried to spray chloaseptic spray on the throat to numb it, it only made it burn worse! Same as cough drops...so, water only from then on out. Dozed on and off until around 7am and I decided I'd call in sick. It was then that I realized I had to voice.

So, off to St. Joe's I go - 9:15am and there already was a line up 10 deep! :( Anyhoos, got in, got seen, got told I'm one big infectious mess - ear infection, throat and pharnyx infections. Got 10 days of penicillan and told to eat little bits of ice cream, popsicles, cold jello or apple sauce, chicken noodle soup, rice and toast and constantly sip water. Put a cold compress (Facecloth) on the throat and that's the best they could do. Totally contagious, so keep the surgical mask they gave me in triage for going out in public. *yeah right!*

BOOOOO.

Still haven't slept (I actually tried to sleep with the mask on last night so Van woudln't catch anything by my coughing), don't think the meds have kicked in ('cuase I feel worse today) and the coughing has started with a vengeance which I haven't had up until now.

Now that I have finally changed over to the new blogger, I'll try to update more often.

PS: I will address the comment tomorrow. Too tired right now...going back to the couch. BOOO.
PPS: At least Distraction is on at 11pm tonight! YAAY!