After visiting the stone store yesterday and doing some research on a couple of the stones for V, and remembering how much I enjoy stone work, research and pickin them out, I went to bed last night thinking how cool it would be to open a kiosk at the mall and have stone, stone jewelry and even some new age/pagan/wiccan influenced jewelry for sale - not a full-fledged store, but at least something for those around town that need the stone medicine which just isn't available here. It's a shame that we have to drive to F'ton or Hfx just to get some stones to work with!
We went to the mall boxing week shopping this evening and we found this really great myth & magic iece which I ended up buying (sooo not in the budget!) and a necklace as well. It was a must have - both Van and I were struck by it - we both loved it immediately, and it was a must have. A one of a kind - something I never would have thought would have worked together - a mother of pearl and malachite wrapped around each othe forming a heart! It's really quite spectacular. I LOVE malachite. Always have and the lady at the store was explaning t me what the stone was and I dont remember what she called it and I said, no - it's malachite and she was like - no, it's uh... oh maybe it is...yes, I think you're right! Of course I'm right! I know my stones, especially my malachite!
Anyway, Van turned to me and said - you know, you should really work in a store that has stones and jewelry like this as you love the stones and you would be really good at it. Yes. Yes I would and yes, i'd really love it and enjoy working with the stones and jelery. my only concern is that I woudln't be able to give up the beautiful stones and jewelry pieces! :)
So, I told him about what I was thinking about last night and he agreed that it was a good idea. I'd like to start small - like a kiosk and he doesn't see the problem with starting big - get a franchise. I'll see. If it's meant to be, it'll be whatever form it takes. :)
I'm excited about the possibilities though!
Just in case I don't get back on before then - Happy New Year! I hope there are many blessings for you in the next 12 months!
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Driving
We went for a drive Friday to F'ton. Went to Kings Place - bought some stones and crystals for me and for one who needs it for her kids and then saw Van's friend Crystal at work. Then popped over to surprise Tyler, froze ourselves standing outside talking and then went up the hill to the f'ton mall - or the shell formerly known as the f'ton mall, and then on to Regent mall and back home again. Overall a great day. It's been along time since we'd gone for a drive - it was very nice.
I'm getting the itch to do a drive to Hfx - just a day trip and I know mom's been wanting to go too - she's past hinting and just outright asking when I'm going. I think I could easily make a girls day trip out of it - maybe around my bday - just down and back - it will depend on the weather and my stamina - lately I have none.
Came back last night and watched the Night Court DVD that Van got for xmas. Pretty funny stuff.
Tonight, we watched the pilot eposodes of The Flash and Dead Like Me. Both were okay. I'll have to watch another episode or two of each to determine whether or not they are something I'll be glad to say I own the series of! :) I really found DLM confusing, but I guess it's suppossed to be.
The kitten is the stinkiest thing! All she does is fart! Makes me smell good!
Tomorrow, we are planning on it being an R&R "musical day" with watching the Divine Madness DVD I got for xmas as well as the Queen - Live at Wembley DVD that Van got for xmas and maybe even Chicago or Ray dvd. Didn't get those for xmas, but for the boxing week specials - ray $5.99 and Chicago - $7.99. Currently, we're watching/listening to the Tesla dvd. I'm so happy to see Van really into it and really enjoying it - singing along and leaning forward intently. Yay me for picking a good xmas present!
I want to do a bit of re-arranging in the house the next couple of days, but Van wants to rest and relax, so I'll have to do it covertly so he won't feel it necessary to do it all or even d it with me. I'll go through and throw alot out which generally stresses him out. It's time to clean house and throw out what I haven't used in the past year - no sense keeping it and wasting space with it if I haven't used it in a year. :)
Already started the re-arranging today, because Van moved the sheet music cabinet up to beside the piano for me from the spare room. I'd like to take down all the decorations in the next couple of days and move things back to rights, but he wants to wait until jan 1 to do that, but then we won't be off! ah well. when it gets done, it gets done :)
I shouldn't be so tried, but I am - we didn't get up until noon today, slept 12 hours, but still ready for bed at midnight. sad. I'm such an old fuddy duddy!
I'm getting the itch to do a drive to Hfx - just a day trip and I know mom's been wanting to go too - she's past hinting and just outright asking when I'm going. I think I could easily make a girls day trip out of it - maybe around my bday - just down and back - it will depend on the weather and my stamina - lately I have none.
Came back last night and watched the Night Court DVD that Van got for xmas. Pretty funny stuff.
Tonight, we watched the pilot eposodes of The Flash and Dead Like Me. Both were okay. I'll have to watch another episode or two of each to determine whether or not they are something I'll be glad to say I own the series of! :) I really found DLM confusing, but I guess it's suppossed to be.
The kitten is the stinkiest thing! All she does is fart! Makes me smell good!
Tomorrow, we are planning on it being an R&R "musical day" with watching the Divine Madness DVD I got for xmas as well as the Queen - Live at Wembley DVD that Van got for xmas and maybe even Chicago or Ray dvd. Didn't get those for xmas, but for the boxing week specials - ray $5.99 and Chicago - $7.99. Currently, we're watching/listening to the Tesla dvd. I'm so happy to see Van really into it and really enjoying it - singing along and leaning forward intently. Yay me for picking a good xmas present!
I want to do a bit of re-arranging in the house the next couple of days, but Van wants to rest and relax, so I'll have to do it covertly so he won't feel it necessary to do it all or even d it with me. I'll go through and throw alot out which generally stresses him out. It's time to clean house and throw out what I haven't used in the past year - no sense keeping it and wasting space with it if I haven't used it in a year. :)
Already started the re-arranging today, because Van moved the sheet music cabinet up to beside the piano for me from the spare room. I'd like to take down all the decorations in the next couple of days and move things back to rights, but he wants to wait until jan 1 to do that, but then we won't be off! ah well. when it gets done, it gets done :)
I shouldn't be so tried, but I am - we didn't get up until noon today, slept 12 hours, but still ready for bed at midnight. sad. I'm such an old fuddy duddy!
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Thursday, December 21, 2006
New Baby
Van and I are parents of another baby girl! Her name is P.G. Russell. P is for Pixie. The G for now is for girl, however when she's bad it's for goober and if she grows in to those paws it'll be for Goliath! :)
We spied her a month ago in a pet store and visited a few times, not really sure we wanted another one, bu after 5 weeks and 3 other litters sold and not her, we couldn't let her stay there alone any longer.
Oh yes! She's also a black cat! :)
I'll post piccies later.
We spied her a month ago in a pet store and visited a few times, not really sure we wanted another one, bu after 5 weeks and 3 other litters sold and not her, we couldn't let her stay there alone any longer.
Oh yes! She's also a black cat! :)
I'll post piccies later.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Not a whole lot
So, not a whole lot going on right now. We were able to get the tree up and so far so good on the cats not tearing it apart. We're only letting them in to the living room when we're around, so as not to tempt them too much! We also don't have it fully decorated yet either, so we'll see what the end result is! :)
I spotted anotehr kitten - another black one. Soooooo cute! :) but, alone :( the rest of her brothers and sisters were all sold and she is the only one left. He said they have a hard time getting people to take black cats and she wasn't taken because she's black. So sad. Anyway, they brought more kittens in, but the new ones are not accepting of her and she was just sittign all alone, basically with a leave me alone and get me out of here look on her face. Van let me hold her - so friendly and cuddly - the complete opposite of the first time we held the two we have. :)
Van is not convinced that we should get her due to the whole we already have 2, why do we need another and the money aspect. He's quite right, but I don't want to see the little thing be left there either!
So, we'll see. He said we can go back and see if she's still there 24 - 48 hours from when we were there and can discuss it more seriously at that time if she is.
Really, we need another cat like we need a whole in the head, but I think I'm simply substituting at this point for the real thing which is far more committment and money in the long term! :)
I spotted anotehr kitten - another black one. Soooooo cute! :) but, alone :( the rest of her brothers and sisters were all sold and she is the only one left. He said they have a hard time getting people to take black cats and she wasn't taken because she's black. So sad. Anyway, they brought more kittens in, but the new ones are not accepting of her and she was just sittign all alone, basically with a leave me alone and get me out of here look on her face. Van let me hold her - so friendly and cuddly - the complete opposite of the first time we held the two we have. :)
Van is not convinced that we should get her due to the whole we already have 2, why do we need another and the money aspect. He's quite right, but I don't want to see the little thing be left there either!
So, we'll see. He said we can go back and see if she's still there 24 - 48 hours from when we were there and can discuss it more seriously at that time if she is.
Really, we need another cat like we need a whole in the head, but I think I'm simply substituting at this point for the real thing which is far more committment and money in the long term! :)
Sunday, November 26, 2006
been too long!
Wow! It's been a while since I've posted anything! Been a while since I've done anything but work! :)
Finally sat down and got Shakti on board and met up with the two girls from work that I was unsure about whether or not I should go the step extra and meet outside of work to talk about spiritual things. It does cross a bit of a line.
Anyway, Shakti agreed to be there and give me a second opinion on the situation, so we all met up after work last week (maybe two weeks ago now) at a local restaurant for dessert and dish! It went well overall.
Very shortly in to the conversation, it was apparant Shakti had to be there, By the end of the night, it was apparant that I was the conduit for those two to meet up with someone that can honestly say been there, done that and not carrying around a cip on her shulder that's 10 feet tall and very obvious! It was a good conversation. i got my answers to all the things that I was wondering about and I think that they got more than they were bargaining gfor as well, which isn't always a bad thing! :) It was basically the proverbial "kick in the ass" (which I'm famous for providing to others) but it wasn't really me they had to hear it from, which was cool.
I no longer feel compelled, or even pulled in that direction now at all. I don't forsee another meeting like that being held. There wasn't the connection - the power or the strength. it was a good, cleansing time, answered a lot of questions for all three of us, but it's nothing that I feel must happen again, when most times I feel like I have to do that again soon when it's "right". It wasn't wrong mind you, it jsut wasn't "right".
I did find though through taht conversation that I do what Bonnie always said she did - open the mouth and it just comes out as if it's not you speaking it and after you say it, you think to yourself, WTF?!? Where did I come up with that?! heheh. That was cool. So many times in teh conversation, Shakti would start the sentence and I would finish it, or we'd speak in stereo - so funny!
Other than that, I have not been doing too much to foster my own spirit. I have basically given up on weight watchers - they've moved and all classes are now being held out east - too much of a pain to drive out to and I'm not ready to lose weight. I sabatage, my surroundings sabatage...it's a waste of money at this point in time.
I really have to get my taxes and the lawsuit paperwork taken care of, but neither have gotten very far. I still have to figure out what I owe in taxes this year, and I've still got probably 6 months worth of typing left to catch up on. Iv'e set many dates to complete these but it's jsut not working for me. My boss said to me the other day taht when they were going through their lawsuit, their lawyer told them that every day they waited, they lost approximately $1000 off the bottom line. That kind of sunk in that potentially every day I finish this paperwork up, I loose $1000 bucks!!
Other than that, i've gotten a good start on the xmas backing - I've gotten 25 bags of bark done. I also spent entirely too much on xmas presents at the craft show but think that people will enjoy their unique things. If not, too bad! :) I've got to wrap all of the presents, but that's not too bad! It looks like we'll be working xmas eve, xmas day and boxing day, which kinda sucks, but we should be free on new years, so that's not so bad.
So, hope everyone else is gettign in the xmas mood! The decorations are going up around the house and it's very sparkly! :)
Finally sat down and got Shakti on board and met up with the two girls from work that I was unsure about whether or not I should go the step extra and meet outside of work to talk about spiritual things. It does cross a bit of a line.
Anyway, Shakti agreed to be there and give me a second opinion on the situation, so we all met up after work last week (maybe two weeks ago now) at a local restaurant for dessert and dish! It went well overall.
Very shortly in to the conversation, it was apparant Shakti had to be there, By the end of the night, it was apparant that I was the conduit for those two to meet up with someone that can honestly say been there, done that and not carrying around a cip on her shulder that's 10 feet tall and very obvious! It was a good conversation. i got my answers to all the things that I was wondering about and I think that they got more than they were bargaining gfor as well, which isn't always a bad thing! :) It was basically the proverbial "kick in the ass" (which I'm famous for providing to others) but it wasn't really me they had to hear it from, which was cool.
I no longer feel compelled, or even pulled in that direction now at all. I don't forsee another meeting like that being held. There wasn't the connection - the power or the strength. it was a good, cleansing time, answered a lot of questions for all three of us, but it's nothing that I feel must happen again, when most times I feel like I have to do that again soon when it's "right". It wasn't wrong mind you, it jsut wasn't "right".
I did find though through taht conversation that I do what Bonnie always said she did - open the mouth and it just comes out as if it's not you speaking it and after you say it, you think to yourself, WTF?!? Where did I come up with that?! heheh. That was cool. So many times in teh conversation, Shakti would start the sentence and I would finish it, or we'd speak in stereo - so funny!
Other than that, I have not been doing too much to foster my own spirit. I have basically given up on weight watchers - they've moved and all classes are now being held out east - too much of a pain to drive out to and I'm not ready to lose weight. I sabatage, my surroundings sabatage...it's a waste of money at this point in time.
I really have to get my taxes and the lawsuit paperwork taken care of, but neither have gotten very far. I still have to figure out what I owe in taxes this year, and I've still got probably 6 months worth of typing left to catch up on. Iv'e set many dates to complete these but it's jsut not working for me. My boss said to me the other day taht when they were going through their lawsuit, their lawyer told them that every day they waited, they lost approximately $1000 off the bottom line. That kind of sunk in that potentially every day I finish this paperwork up, I loose $1000 bucks!!
Other than that, i've gotten a good start on the xmas backing - I've gotten 25 bags of bark done. I also spent entirely too much on xmas presents at the craft show but think that people will enjoy their unique things. If not, too bad! :) I've got to wrap all of the presents, but that's not too bad! It looks like we'll be working xmas eve, xmas day and boxing day, which kinda sucks, but we should be free on new years, so that's not so bad.
So, hope everyone else is gettign in the xmas mood! The decorations are going up around the house and it's very sparkly! :)
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Sunday again
So, it's Sunday again. Another wee has passed. I am home and not at work this Sunday as I have to get the paperwork finished up on the lawsuit. I only got about 4 horus done on Thusday as I had company over in the evening, but it was enough to get me started, so taht's a good thing. The bad thing is that I proabbly have another 40 hours left to do and only 7 hour hours to finish it! ACK!
and what am i doing instead of typing up files? I'm blogging! :)
I soooo have to get back on W.W. program. I'm sooo up after all the halloween candy I've eaten!
I've got to get my head back in teh game on so many levels - home, work, physically and spiritually. Had a good talk with Shakti about the last one and I think I have a game plan to get back on track that way again and I think the blog will help with that as well - at least, I hope it will. Depends on how much time I have to writing about it. I need to take mroe time to read about it first! :)
Well, enough of the continuous procrastinating! Hope all are well out there and that everyone has a great week!
and what am i doing instead of typing up files? I'm blogging! :)
I soooo have to get back on W.W. program. I'm sooo up after all the halloween candy I've eaten!
I've got to get my head back in teh game on so many levels - home, work, physically and spiritually. Had a good talk with Shakti about the last one and I think I have a game plan to get back on track that way again and I think the blog will help with that as well - at least, I hope it will. Depends on how much time I have to writing about it. I need to take mroe time to read about it first! :)
Well, enough of the continuous procrastinating! Hope all are well out there and that everyone has a great week!
Sunday again
So, it's Sunday again. Another wee has passed. I am home and not at work this Sunday as I have to get the paperwork finished up on the lawsuit. I only got about 4 horus done on Thusday as I had company over in the evening, but it was enough to get me started, so taht's a good thing. The bad thing is that I proabbly have another 40 hours left to do and only 7 hour hours to finish it! ACK!
and what am i doing instead of typing up files? I'm blogging! :)
I soooo have to get back on W.W. program. I'm sooo up after all the halloween candy I've eaten!
I've got to get my head back in teh game on so many levels - home, work, physically and spiritually. Had a good talk with Shakti about the last one and I think I have a game plan to get back on track that way again and I think the blog will help with that as well - at least, I hope it will. Depends on how much time I have to writing about it. I need to take mroe time to read about it first! :)
Well, enough of the continuous procrastinating! Hope all are well out there and that everyone has a great week!
and what am i doing instead of typing up files? I'm blogging! :)
I soooo have to get back on W.W. program. I'm sooo up after all the halloween candy I've eaten!
I've got to get my head back in teh game on so many levels - home, work, physically and spiritually. Had a good talk with Shakti about the last one and I think I have a game plan to get back on track that way again and I think the blog will help with that as well - at least, I hope it will. Depends on how much time I have to writing about it. I need to take mroe time to read about it first! :)
Well, enough of the continuous procrastinating! Hope all are well out there and that everyone has a great week!
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
happy halloween!!!
happy halloween everone!
I've had a grand total of 15 at the door tonight! :( When I lived on this avenue as a kid halloween night it was like ants on the avenue with sooooo many people walking door to door. It was rather disappointing.
It did however give me some time to do some billets. I had a few new people to read and it was the first time in probably a year that I did billets. It was nice. More intense than I remember, which is good.
I have a Festival meeting tomorrow night. :( But, I have Shakti coming over Thursday night for a girls night - maybe more readings too, who knows?
Should be fun.
Anyways, just wanted to send out a big BOO!! to everyone tonight!
I've had a grand total of 15 at the door tonight! :( When I lived on this avenue as a kid halloween night it was like ants on the avenue with sooooo many people walking door to door. It was rather disappointing.
It did however give me some time to do some billets. I had a few new people to read and it was the first time in probably a year that I did billets. It was nice. More intense than I remember, which is good.
I have a Festival meeting tomorrow night. :( But, I have Shakti coming over Thursday night for a girls night - maybe more readings too, who knows?
Should be fun.
Anyways, just wanted to send out a big BOO!! to everyone tonight!
Sunday, October 22, 2006
3 day weekend
We had a 3 day weekend this weekend. We don't normally get days off unless sick or in hospital, so of course, that was a pre-requisite!
Van had his eye surgery on Friday. The surgeon said that he thinks the surgery went well, but said they had a bugger of a time waking him up from the anaesthesia. We won't know really how successful the surgery was for a few more days. We'll see. Well, actually, hopefully it'll be Van that sees, but we have to wait to see. Boy! That was confusing. Anyway, he should be able to see better than before.
Well, Friday was the day of surgery, yesterday was spent recouperating from Friday and today is the day designated to clean this house. It's been much too long since I've cleaned this place well enough. But, I teach Monday, so I have to do it today.
We're decorated for Halloween, which is nice...homey and glowey :)
So yeah, lots to do, so best get out of here for now. Hope everyone had a great weekend!
Van had his eye surgery on Friday. The surgeon said that he thinks the surgery went well, but said they had a bugger of a time waking him up from the anaesthesia. We won't know really how successful the surgery was for a few more days. We'll see. Well, actually, hopefully it'll be Van that sees, but we have to wait to see. Boy! That was confusing. Anyway, he should be able to see better than before.
Well, Friday was the day of surgery, yesterday was spent recouperating from Friday and today is the day designated to clean this house. It's been much too long since I've cleaned this place well enough. But, I teach Monday, so I have to do it today.
We're decorated for Halloween, which is nice...homey and glowey :)
So yeah, lots to do, so best get out of here for now. Hope everyone had a great weekend!
Saturday, October 14, 2006
More than expected
So, since my post on Wednesday, I've been at work every night except Friday night until midnight. I am supposed to be off today, but the weekend lead is throwing up sick.
Technically, this is a new week on the pay period, so this is hour 7.25 technically.
However, last week, from Sat. Oct 7 through Friday, Oct. 13th I worked 61.25 hours!
So, if it wasn't a new pay week, this would be hour 82.5 :)
That's why I haven't gotten any of the readings done I said I was going to get done LAST weekend - too tired to concentrate. Sorry folks.
Maybe I'll have some time next weekend to do some billets.
At the very least, I'll do a few readings Oct. 31 :)
Technically, this is a new week on the pay period, so this is hour 7.25 technically.
However, last week, from Sat. Oct 7 through Friday, Oct. 13th I worked 61.25 hours!
So, if it wasn't a new pay week, this would be hour 82.5 :)
That's why I haven't gotten any of the readings done I said I was going to get done LAST weekend - too tired to concentrate. Sorry folks.
Maybe I'll have some time next weekend to do some billets.
At the very least, I'll do a few readings Oct. 31 :)
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
wow!
Wow! where does the time go? I said to Van my last post was on Thanksgiving Sunday. Ummm...nope...try a week ago Thanksgiving Sunday! :)
Sorry for the lack of updates. Not having access at work anymore does limit the amount of blogging one can do.
Why is there no access from work? We're too busy! Which is a good thing as far as job security goes, a bad thing when you're on salary! :)
Anyway, its been basically work and sleep. Not much else in life to talk about.
I had my own office at work for a week, but that really wasn't convenient in the grand scheme of things, so I'm back out on the floor, but I do have my own area at least this time. That being said, it's still within picking range of the agents, so I still get interrupted a lot more than that one week of peace :)
I started going to weight watchers 11 weeks ago. I struggled with 10 pounds. I got as close as 9.6, then baktracked to 8 lost, then flirted with 10 again and the back up to the 8 pounds lost. It's funny because the week that most people have their difficulties in keeping down - Thanksgiving week - I lost my biggest yet - 4.4 and not only made it over 10, but with room to spare! As of last night I have lost 13.2lbs! yay! I am hoping that now that I have crossed the 10 the next 10 won't be such a struggle.
I really need two days off in a row, but due to people leaving of ther own accord, the company's accord and heavy call volume, I have to train tomorrow and Friday of this week and probably next week, which means I will do well to get Saturday off. Oh well, it's overtime, right? Oh. No overtime on salary? Well, I'll get a couple days in lieu of working the stat day and 14.5 hours no less two days in a row, right? Oh. right. Can't get my regular two days off. Funny that. Oh well. Maybe in the next lifetime! :)
Mario Kart is too much fun from 1 - 3am. It's too much fun after a long day to then kill off players using shells, electric boxes and bananas! Damn Bananas! :) I don't really mean to kill off Van when we play, but I have this knack of not being able to drive in a stright line to save my soul, especially when I have mushrooms and generally end up hitting him when we're on a bridge or near the edge of the cliff on DK Mountain. But, even then, it's fun! A good release! :) But, they really should made controllers for left handed people because my right thumb being basically useless is a bit of a hindrance when trying to throw things at people and that's the finger you have to use. bastards!
Have a great week!
Sorry for the lack of updates. Not having access at work anymore does limit the amount of blogging one can do.
Why is there no access from work? We're too busy! Which is a good thing as far as job security goes, a bad thing when you're on salary! :)
Anyway, its been basically work and sleep. Not much else in life to talk about.
I had my own office at work for a week, but that really wasn't convenient in the grand scheme of things, so I'm back out on the floor, but I do have my own area at least this time. That being said, it's still within picking range of the agents, so I still get interrupted a lot more than that one week of peace :)
I started going to weight watchers 11 weeks ago. I struggled with 10 pounds. I got as close as 9.6, then baktracked to 8 lost, then flirted with 10 again and the back up to the 8 pounds lost. It's funny because the week that most people have their difficulties in keeping down - Thanksgiving week - I lost my biggest yet - 4.4 and not only made it over 10, but with room to spare! As of last night I have lost 13.2lbs! yay! I am hoping that now that I have crossed the 10 the next 10 won't be such a struggle.
I really need two days off in a row, but due to people leaving of ther own accord, the company's accord and heavy call volume, I have to train tomorrow and Friday of this week and probably next week, which means I will do well to get Saturday off. Oh well, it's overtime, right? Oh. No overtime on salary? Well, I'll get a couple days in lieu of working the stat day and 14.5 hours no less two days in a row, right? Oh. right. Can't get my regular two days off. Funny that. Oh well. Maybe in the next lifetime! :)
Mario Kart is too much fun from 1 - 3am. It's too much fun after a long day to then kill off players using shells, electric boxes and bananas! Damn Bananas! :) I don't really mean to kill off Van when we play, but I have this knack of not being able to drive in a stright line to save my soul, especially when I have mushrooms and generally end up hitting him when we're on a bridge or near the edge of the cliff on DK Mountain. But, even then, it's fun! A good release! :) But, they really should made controllers for left handed people because my right thumb being basically useless is a bit of a hindrance when trying to throw things at people and that's the finger you have to use. bastards!
Have a great week!
Monday, October 02, 2006
Odd
You know, the first sunday without having to go to church was really rather odd! I don't know how to explain it other than while I knew I didn't have to get up and go, it felt as if I never ever got up and went in the first place! hehe.
Sunday morning is a nice time to cuddle! :)
Sunday morning is a nice time to cuddle! :)
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Spiritual Science Fellowship
Perhaps now that I am not at a church on Sunday morning I may be able to take a Sunday afternoon, evening and Monday off to go to Halifax to get back in the vibe of the Spiritual Science Fellowship. The principles are something I really relate to, they are deep into the healing of the body, mind and spirit through therapeutic touch sessions before service, but also through distance healing, which I love and have gotten too far away from. The warmth and vibe of inclusion I believe would still the same at the services and the services are now held in a different place. Times and people have changed, but the teaching that started with Fred and Jeannine continues on in those they taught, (I consider Bonnie and therefore myself included in that) which is a true legacy. In sorting through some papers earlier today, I found some papers on the fellowship and it had things I have been wanting to share:
The Spiritual Science fellowship has no dogmas or creeds and welcomes persons from all traditions.
Our Foundations rest upon inights from the Modern Spiritualist Movement and Classical Yoga, as well as other ancient and modern traditions for the development of human potential, including Metaphysics and new Age thought.
1) We believe in Infinite, Creative, Universal Intelligence which we know as God...the highest Form of Love, Power and Wisdom.
2) We believe that the phenomena of Nature, both physical and spiritual, are expressions of this Infinite Intelligence.
3) We affirm that a correct understanding of such expression, and living in accordance therewith, constitute true spirituality.
4) We affirm that the existence and personal identity of the individual continue after the change called death.
5) We affirm that communication with the so-called dead - in a universal communion of saints and spirits - is a fact. It is believed in most of the world's higher religions, but experientially shared through mediumship and other psychic and spirit phenomena.
6) We affirm that the practices of clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, psychometry, aura-sensing, spiritual and psychic healing, prophecy, divination, higher forms of intuition, and communication with the Spiritual World, are both natural human potentals and gifts of the Spirit.
7) We believe the morality contained in the Golden Rule: "Whatsoever ye would that others should do unto you, do ye also unto them." We also believe that forgivemness of others is a Divine Act, opening the door to healing, love and inner-peace.
8) We affirm the moral responsibility of the individual and that we make our own happiness or unhappiness as we obey or disobey Nature's physical and spiritual laws.
9) We acknowledge that God has inspired Masters, teachers, Prophets and Sages to enlighten and raise the consciousness of peoples of all races and faiths throughout the ages.
10) We affirm that the doorway to reformation is never closed against any human soul here or hereafter. Divine grace is freely available to all - regardless of race, religion, or ideology. Te Divine plan includes transformation of consciousness into higher modes of expression on the planet earth, and in the worlds to come.
The Spiritual Science fellowship has no dogmas or creeds and welcomes persons from all traditions.
Our Foundations rest upon inights from the Modern Spiritualist Movement and Classical Yoga, as well as other ancient and modern traditions for the development of human potential, including Metaphysics and new Age thought.
1) We believe in Infinite, Creative, Universal Intelligence which we know as God...the highest Form of Love, Power and Wisdom.
2) We believe that the phenomena of Nature, both physical and spiritual, are expressions of this Infinite Intelligence.
3) We affirm that a correct understanding of such expression, and living in accordance therewith, constitute true spirituality.
4) We affirm that the existence and personal identity of the individual continue after the change called death.
5) We affirm that communication with the so-called dead - in a universal communion of saints and spirits - is a fact. It is believed in most of the world's higher religions, but experientially shared through mediumship and other psychic and spirit phenomena.
6) We affirm that the practices of clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, psychometry, aura-sensing, spiritual and psychic healing, prophecy, divination, higher forms of intuition, and communication with the Spiritual World, are both natural human potentals and gifts of the Spirit.
7) We believe the morality contained in the Golden Rule: "Whatsoever ye would that others should do unto you, do ye also unto them." We also believe that forgivemness of others is a Divine Act, opening the door to healing, love and inner-peace.
8) We affirm the moral responsibility of the individual and that we make our own happiness or unhappiness as we obey or disobey Nature's physical and spiritual laws.
9) We acknowledge that God has inspired Masters, teachers, Prophets and Sages to enlighten and raise the consciousness of peoples of all races and faiths throughout the ages.
10) We affirm that the doorway to reformation is never closed against any human soul here or hereafter. Divine grace is freely available to all - regardless of race, religion, or ideology. Te Divine plan includes transformation of consciousness into higher modes of expression on the planet earth, and in the worlds to come.
Fall Equinox
Fall Equinox, First day of fall, sometimes also called Mabon is the second time in the year where day and night are in perfect balance. Celebrate this time of balance and preparation by taking stock of yourself. What can you harvest now? Which of your labours has yielded fruit? What's unfinished that must still be done? What are you going to do know that you've taken stock of yourself?
(Taken from Llewellyn's 1999 Magical Almanac)
I haven't done that yet - I must get on that. As far things unfinished that must still be done - well, there's two HUGE things that I have back burnered for far too long that will totall come back to bite me in the behind very soon. I need to schedule in time to finish those big tasks and FAST!
(Taken from Llewellyn's 1999 Magical Almanac)
I haven't done that yet - I must get on that. As far things unfinished that must still be done - well, there's two HUGE things that I have back burnered for far too long that will totall come back to bite me in the behind very soon. I need to schedule in time to finish those big tasks and FAST!
It's a great day, personally.
Happy first day of fall!!
I think it's a great day, personally. While I hate to see the warm weather go away, I have to admit it went away early this year (Aug. 10th to be exact!) so, I think we're used to it by now.
It's also a great day, personally because it was the last service for me to permanently be organist and choir director for at the church. I came away with lots of goodies too thanks to the choirs - flowers and cards (handmade and otherwise) from the kids, and two sections of the Willow Tree Figurine Christmas Collection - The three wise men and the Nativity people. So, that's cool.
I'm beginning to like Christmas more than I usually do, but it's still a lot of work! I think this year we'll have to watch what/how much we put out with the cats enver been around christmas or trees or decorations before. Van thinks we shouldn't even bother with a tree, but we'll see.
So, I just have one more choir practice this Thursday night, One more wedding rehearsal on Friday night and one more wedding on Saturday to do.
I can do it. :)
Things around work the past week, week and a half have been bothing tiring and stressful. I haven't gotten more than a day off since we came back on the 3rd, and Van has been in the same boat until this weekend. There was a death in the family of the late week evening and weekend lead, which means that Van and I have had to cover many extra hours. We've also had a minimum of 2 people out per shift (4 people per day) and three of the people have had to go to the hospital this week (2 I sent there!) so, it's been a bit of time to say the least.
I just really need a day off, but that's a hope, wish and a prayer at this point.
I think that we'll be covering next weekend off as well (or at least, Van will as I have a wedding Saturday afternoon) as people are moving as is the weekend lead, and I'm not even sure she will be back this week as the service was just this afternoon for the family.
Anyhoos, I've got a bit of a slow time here at work today (at least for now), so I think I will try to put up a few posts about some of the more spiritual things going on/coming up :)
I think it's a great day, personally. While I hate to see the warm weather go away, I have to admit it went away early this year (Aug. 10th to be exact!) so, I think we're used to it by now.
It's also a great day, personally because it was the last service for me to permanently be organist and choir director for at the church. I came away with lots of goodies too thanks to the choirs - flowers and cards (handmade and otherwise) from the kids, and two sections of the Willow Tree Figurine Christmas Collection - The three wise men and the Nativity people. So, that's cool.
I'm beginning to like Christmas more than I usually do, but it's still a lot of work! I think this year we'll have to watch what/how much we put out with the cats enver been around christmas or trees or decorations before. Van thinks we shouldn't even bother with a tree, but we'll see.
So, I just have one more choir practice this Thursday night, One more wedding rehearsal on Friday night and one more wedding on Saturday to do.
I can do it. :)
Things around work the past week, week and a half have been bothing tiring and stressful. I haven't gotten more than a day off since we came back on the 3rd, and Van has been in the same boat until this weekend. There was a death in the family of the late week evening and weekend lead, which means that Van and I have had to cover many extra hours. We've also had a minimum of 2 people out per shift (4 people per day) and three of the people have had to go to the hospital this week (2 I sent there!) so, it's been a bit of time to say the least.
I just really need a day off, but that's a hope, wish and a prayer at this point.
I think that we'll be covering next weekend off as well (or at least, Van will as I have a wedding Saturday afternoon) as people are moving as is the weekend lead, and I'm not even sure she will be back this week as the service was just this afternoon for the family.
Anyhoos, I've got a bit of a slow time here at work today (at least for now), so I think I will try to put up a few posts about some of the more spiritual things going on/coming up :)
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Lord Chaz.com
Ah - I do enjoy the forums there. I think I'll make this my new mantra -
"What doesn't kill me makes me stranger."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
I LOVE that!
"What doesn't kill me makes me stranger."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
I LOVE that!
Magical Personality
So, I was browsing over at Lwellyn Press's website (Publisher of New Age books) and they have a section of "Fun & Free Stuff", so of course I had to go and take a peek.
I was in a weird mood last night and really was only half paying attention to anything. I was looking for Rockstar, but it was delayed for whatever reason, so I flipped between Canadian Country music Awards and I don't remember what.
Anyhoos, I decided for hoots and hannies to take this "Magical Personality Quiz". I was only half heartedly looking at these questions and answering it it's AMAZINGLY accurate!!!
Here's what it said:
Your Q Score is: 9
The Q score ideally should be as small as possible, indicating maximum agreement among elements. However, even a tiny Q score may not mean optimal functioning, since all four elements may in fact be relatively undeveloped.
Your Primary Mythical Creature
Fire Types
The main strength of the Fire types is achievement. The second element indicates the most probable focus for this urge to achieve.
Wyvern
Fire and Water
Astrologically associated with Aries and the First House
Wyvern types are courageous, idealistic, and passionately concerned with personal rights and justice for the individual. They are among the most outgoing of all the types, highly sociable both at work and at play. They are tirelessly active with respect to other people and are rarely alone. They have a strong moral and ethical sense that makes them fiercely loyal and protective of those they love. They are implacable champions of the underdog and are strongly motivated to help others help themselves. They make good leaders of the democratic variety. They are drawn to competitive activities and group activities. They are exuberant, larger-than-life characters who are guaranteed to get things moving and make events fun, although quieter types may find them overpowering.
Your Shadow Creature
Earth Types
All the Earth types have problems relating to productivity and stability. The weakest element indicates the main focus of these problems.
Gryphon
Earth and Air
This shadow is irrational and unreasonable. They are plagued by a sense of uncertainty and are especially concerned about theft and loss of property. They can become quite paranoid about the motives of other people and despite being sociable in nature they have issues relating to trust. They are prone to bizarre delusions centering on lack of personal security. They are in different ways both self-neglecting and self-indulgent, ignoring genuine physical needs while simultaneously exhibiting hypochondria. Their frenetic lifestyle often reflects a neurotic need to escape a sense of insubstantiality. The biggest obstacle of weak Air is to overcome prejudice and ignorance; the biggest obstacle of weak Earth is to overcome self-centeredness and greed.
I was in a weird mood last night and really was only half paying attention to anything. I was looking for Rockstar, but it was delayed for whatever reason, so I flipped between Canadian Country music Awards and I don't remember what.
Anyhoos, I decided for hoots and hannies to take this "Magical Personality Quiz". I was only half heartedly looking at these questions and answering it it's AMAZINGLY accurate!!!
Here's what it said:
Your Q Score is: 9
The Q score ideally should be as small as possible, indicating maximum agreement among elements. However, even a tiny Q score may not mean optimal functioning, since all four elements may in fact be relatively undeveloped.
Your Primary Mythical Creature
Fire Types
The main strength of the Fire types is achievement. The second element indicates the most probable focus for this urge to achieve.
Wyvern
Fire and Water
Astrologically associated with Aries and the First House
Wyvern types are courageous, idealistic, and passionately concerned with personal rights and justice for the individual. They are among the most outgoing of all the types, highly sociable both at work and at play. They are tirelessly active with respect to other people and are rarely alone. They have a strong moral and ethical sense that makes them fiercely loyal and protective of those they love. They are implacable champions of the underdog and are strongly motivated to help others help themselves. They make good leaders of the democratic variety. They are drawn to competitive activities and group activities. They are exuberant, larger-than-life characters who are guaranteed to get things moving and make events fun, although quieter types may find them overpowering.
Your Shadow Creature
Earth Types
All the Earth types have problems relating to productivity and stability. The weakest element indicates the main focus of these problems.
Gryphon
Earth and Air
This shadow is irrational and unreasonable. They are plagued by a sense of uncertainty and are especially concerned about theft and loss of property. They can become quite paranoid about the motives of other people and despite being sociable in nature they have issues relating to trust. They are prone to bizarre delusions centering on lack of personal security. They are in different ways both self-neglecting and self-indulgent, ignoring genuine physical needs while simultaneously exhibiting hypochondria. Their frenetic lifestyle often reflects a neurotic need to escape a sense of insubstantiality. The biggest obstacle of weak Air is to overcome prejudice and ignorance; the biggest obstacle of weak Earth is to overcome self-centeredness and greed.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
1 year
So, to celebrate successfully completing one year of marriage, Van and I decided to try to go back to PEI again and have a 're-do honeymoon' and see if we can go away wihtout me getting deathly ill.
It worked!
We had a great time over on the island doing the touristy things (Went to the Anne of Green Gables site and did the Gables tour, Haunted Woods walking tour, the Dunes at Cavendish, the World of Wax and Ripley's Believe it or not, Woodleigh Replicas and Kensington Water Gardens.
We stayed at a Bed & Breakfast and it was a great experience (well, minus the baby who screamed between 5 and 7am two nights in a row!) A nice place caller "Heritage Harbour House" decent prices and a great family.
We had booked the master suite (had a jacuzzi tub! wheeee!) and Van definitely had everything planned out and covered.
About 3 weeks before we were to go away we were up in Brunswick Square at English butler. They had Snowbabies on sale that were now retired. The snow babies were musically themed and while I liked them I refused to buy anything or spend that kind of money before we went away.
Van on the other hand went back there after we left , bought the things and then shipped them down to the inn for them to put out for when we arrived. He also had them get a dozen roses and have it set out for me as well as a frit basket.
yes, I have the most awesome, thoughtful, caring and considerate man! :)
We splurged and got tickets to the final performance of "Canada Rocks". I had no clue that Terry Hatty is a Saint Johner!
While standing in the lobby of the confederation center (Van was in the bathroom) I saw a man walk by and I thought my eyes were playin a game on me. I spoke outloud the man whom I thought it was name and there was no response.
I knew it was him however, so I tried again - "Mike? Michael?" and the fellow stopped, turned to me and goes "Yes, I'm Michael." and there was no recognition on his face at all.
So, I said, "Oh Mike, you don't remember me?" and he blinks and goes - "Of course I do Terri-Lynn! How the hell are you?!"
and off to the races went the conversation.
Mike and I were buds at the conservatory in Hfx. I taught his eldest son piano for a few years.
I moved back to SJ in July and the following March, the family got in a car accident on the airline outside of Bangor and Robbie was killed instantly. Mike was never the same since.
That was essentially the last time I had heard anything about him or his family, so it was nice to see him again. I always wondered how he made out after that.
it's been 5 years. Mike is still teaching at the conservatory and the youngest son is not so young anymore - a lanky 17 year old! :)
Anyway, Mike had played with all the "stars" involved in the show at one time or another, so he and his wife and son had come ovver for the last show to support his friends.
He got me caught up on some of the people from my past life, including Peggy - still no kids and never will :) I often wondered how she and her hubby were.
Just as I got a bit of a moment to tell him my news that I had gotten married (to which he stated - "OMG! So there really is someone for everyone!" bastard! hehehe) did Van come up beside me. :) So, Van and Mike got to meet. Don't know why, but that was a big thing to me. Weird.
Anyhoos, it's been a bit of a rough week. Trying to play catch up at work after a vacation is never any fun. But, it'll get better I'm sure.
Hope you all had a good couple of weeks. I'll try to get back to more regular posting, but also back to posting about the original reason for this blog - exloring the spiritual path of life.
It worked!
We had a great time over on the island doing the touristy things (Went to the Anne of Green Gables site and did the Gables tour, Haunted Woods walking tour, the Dunes at Cavendish, the World of Wax and Ripley's Believe it or not, Woodleigh Replicas and Kensington Water Gardens.
We stayed at a Bed & Breakfast and it was a great experience (well, minus the baby who screamed between 5 and 7am two nights in a row!) A nice place caller "Heritage Harbour House" decent prices and a great family.
We had booked the master suite (had a jacuzzi tub! wheeee!) and Van definitely had everything planned out and covered.
About 3 weeks before we were to go away we were up in Brunswick Square at English butler. They had Snowbabies on sale that were now retired. The snow babies were musically themed and while I liked them I refused to buy anything or spend that kind of money before we went away.
Van on the other hand went back there after we left , bought the things and then shipped them down to the inn for them to put out for when we arrived. He also had them get a dozen roses and have it set out for me as well as a frit basket.
yes, I have the most awesome, thoughtful, caring and considerate man! :)
We splurged and got tickets to the final performance of "Canada Rocks". I had no clue that Terry Hatty is a Saint Johner!
While standing in the lobby of the confederation center (Van was in the bathroom) I saw a man walk by and I thought my eyes were playin a game on me. I spoke outloud the man whom I thought it was name and there was no response.
I knew it was him however, so I tried again - "Mike? Michael?" and the fellow stopped, turned to me and goes "Yes, I'm Michael." and there was no recognition on his face at all.
So, I said, "Oh Mike, you don't remember me?" and he blinks and goes - "Of course I do Terri-Lynn! How the hell are you?!"
and off to the races went the conversation.
Mike and I were buds at the conservatory in Hfx. I taught his eldest son piano for a few years.
I moved back to SJ in July and the following March, the family got in a car accident on the airline outside of Bangor and Robbie was killed instantly. Mike was never the same since.
That was essentially the last time I had heard anything about him or his family, so it was nice to see him again. I always wondered how he made out after that.
it's been 5 years. Mike is still teaching at the conservatory and the youngest son is not so young anymore - a lanky 17 year old! :)
Anyway, Mike had played with all the "stars" involved in the show at one time or another, so he and his wife and son had come ovver for the last show to support his friends.
He got me caught up on some of the people from my past life, including Peggy - still no kids and never will :) I often wondered how she and her hubby were.
Just as I got a bit of a moment to tell him my news that I had gotten married (to which he stated - "OMG! So there really is someone for everyone!" bastard! hehehe) did Van come up beside me. :) So, Van and Mike got to meet. Don't know why, but that was a big thing to me. Weird.
Anyhoos, it's been a bit of a rough week. Trying to play catch up at work after a vacation is never any fun. But, it'll get better I'm sure.
Hope you all had a good couple of weeks. I'll try to get back to more regular posting, but also back to posting about the original reason for this blog - exloring the spiritual path of life.
Friday, August 25, 2006
New to us
So, this afternoon around 2:30pm we got a new to us vehicle. The truck, which I have to say I still love, became too expensive to continue with and quite frankly, I lost faith in it. So, we got an automatic (which Van can now drive) - 2003 Pontiac Grand Am - Blue (but not a true blue. I'll have to get a pic).
So, hopefully we'll have better luck with this vehicle and better gas milage. it was $60 bucks a week and I go basically no where! It might be good for Van too once he has is eye surgery for coming home at midnight on his own and not by bus or cab!
We're going to try PEI next weekend. Spending filthy amounts of money just to go to PEI, but it's our "re-do honeymoon" so hopefully I won't get deathly ill this time around! :)
Anyhoos, it's been a big day for a day off!! I have a wedding tomorrow afternoon @ 5:30pm at a catholic church here in town. Not really a big fan of the set up at this church for the organist, but it'll hopefully work without incident!
Have a great weekend folks!
So, hopefully we'll have better luck with this vehicle and better gas milage. it was $60 bucks a week and I go basically no where! It might be good for Van too once he has is eye surgery for coming home at midnight on his own and not by bus or cab!
We're going to try PEI next weekend. Spending filthy amounts of money just to go to PEI, but it's our "re-do honeymoon" so hopefully I won't get deathly ill this time around! :)
Anyhoos, it's been a big day for a day off!! I have a wedding tomorrow afternoon @ 5:30pm at a catholic church here in town. Not really a big fan of the set up at this church for the organist, but it'll hopefully work without incident!
Have a great weekend folks!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
any ideas on how to motivate?
Any ideas out there on how I can be more motivated to get things done? I still haven't done my taxes for this year, still haven't finished the paperwork that I need to get ready and then get to the lawyer for the lawsuit (at the rate I'm going, I'm never going to get a settlement) and motivated to lose weight? Ideas? Anyone? I'm all out.
Work has just exploded - yet again. Van called at 9:30pm tonight saying we were at 937 and counting. Eassily going break 1000 calls in today and there were around 150 voicemails waiting to be called back. that's nearly double what our busiest day previously was (and that was just last week).
I am really looking forward to no choir and no church in a month's time.
More over, I'm REALLY looking forward to getting a couple of days off at the end of the month! If things go the way they are headed, I may try to take a couple more days at the beginning of Sept. to get the paperwork tidied up (started, maybe?)
Anyhoos, that's about the only thing going at this point in time. Just thought I'd put it out there.
Hope all is well for everyone else!
Work has just exploded - yet again. Van called at 9:30pm tonight saying we were at 937 and counting. Eassily going break 1000 calls in today and there were around 150 voicemails waiting to be called back. that's nearly double what our busiest day previously was (and that was just last week).
I am really looking forward to no choir and no church in a month's time.
More over, I'm REALLY looking forward to getting a couple of days off at the end of the month! If things go the way they are headed, I may try to take a couple more days at the beginning of Sept. to get the paperwork tidied up (started, maybe?)
Anyhoos, that's about the only thing going at this point in time. Just thought I'd put it out there.
Hope all is well for everyone else!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Life changes and announcements
So, after about 6 to 8 months of relative stagnancy, my life has picked up and is headed on a new path rather quickly.
The office is now busting at the seams. Literally. On June 1st we had 6 employees as of August 1st we have 26.
The office simply needs me full time - more than full time really. I'm averaging 50 hours per week and the way it's going (another new project won today that starts in October) it's going to be this way until the new year at least.
With that though, I can't continue to keep the pace of what I have been - 3 jobs (office, church, teaching) and the 4th unpaid job of Festival executive secretary. Something had to go.
In July I decided to cut back on students and instead of teaching 2 - 3 nights per week and have 12 students that I would cut back to 1 night a week and choose the 5 students that I wanted to keep, so I called around and did that.
Then, things have changed drastically at the church and the "team" has been slowly dismantled. First, Bruce my right hand around there) left and then at the end of May the minister asked for a transfer. his last sunday is this coming sunday.
The only reason I have been keeping the church is so that if the office had downtime like it did tha past couple of years (we went 6 - 10 weeks without any work a few times) then it took the financial burden off and I was also getting medical coverage there. Well, with the office is making many changes in the past month, one of them is getting a benefits package. So, with that coverage, and with the steady work lined up into a farhter future than any of us ever expected, I could finally make the decision.
At 8:30pm tonight, I hand-delivered my resignation to the chair of the ministry & personnel committee. He wasn't surprised and didn't seem too disappointed either.
So, effective September 30th, I will no longer be a full time organist & choir director. I won't have the committment of every weekend, every major holiday spent at the church. I will be able to sleep in and maybe even go out and DO something on a satuday night (shock of all shocks!)
I lasted there longer than either myself or my mother exected, so I feel like I accomished quite a feat. They are a notoriously difficult congregation to deal with, so I'm rather proud. but, I'm also rather tired.
So, we'll see how I make out budgeting on one income and not 2!!!
I'll keep you posted!
The office is now busting at the seams. Literally. On June 1st we had 6 employees as of August 1st we have 26.
The office simply needs me full time - more than full time really. I'm averaging 50 hours per week and the way it's going (another new project won today that starts in October) it's going to be this way until the new year at least.
With that though, I can't continue to keep the pace of what I have been - 3 jobs (office, church, teaching) and the 4th unpaid job of Festival executive secretary. Something had to go.
In July I decided to cut back on students and instead of teaching 2 - 3 nights per week and have 12 students that I would cut back to 1 night a week and choose the 5 students that I wanted to keep, so I called around and did that.
Then, things have changed drastically at the church and the "team" has been slowly dismantled. First, Bruce my right hand around there) left and then at the end of May the minister asked for a transfer. his last sunday is this coming sunday.
The only reason I have been keeping the church is so that if the office had downtime like it did tha past couple of years (we went 6 - 10 weeks without any work a few times) then it took the financial burden off and I was also getting medical coverage there. Well, with the office is making many changes in the past month, one of them is getting a benefits package. So, with that coverage, and with the steady work lined up into a farhter future than any of us ever expected, I could finally make the decision.
At 8:30pm tonight, I hand-delivered my resignation to the chair of the ministry & personnel committee. He wasn't surprised and didn't seem too disappointed either.
So, effective September 30th, I will no longer be a full time organist & choir director. I won't have the committment of every weekend, every major holiday spent at the church. I will be able to sleep in and maybe even go out and DO something on a satuday night (shock of all shocks!)
I lasted there longer than either myself or my mother exected, so I feel like I accomished quite a feat. They are a notoriously difficult congregation to deal with, so I'm rather proud. but, I'm also rather tired.
So, we'll see how I make out budgeting on one income and not 2!!!
I'll keep you posted!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Chaz is too funny
My cousins are heading to the New Orleans area for a wedding at the end of the month. They asked for som suggestions of things to do and see while they are there. One thing that leapt to mind was the vampire and ghost walking tour that we took with Chaz and Boone and Randy. Chaz makes an impact. That and when we were on the tour, he explained a bit of his history in life and he is a musician, used to be a music teacher, etc, and he just always stuck with me (and I think Sarah still has the scars on her back from the scratches he gave her with his real nails! heheh) So, tonight, I went searching online and found out that Chaz split with the company he was working with when we were there and went out on his own. There is a website for him: http://www.lordchaz.com and discussion boards.
He has a journal on one of the boards. I couldn't help myself. I went on to see. A subject line struck me and I had to read. I nearly wet myself with laughter especially at the last few lines. I had to copy and paste it here (I've bolded what killed me):
Lord Chaz
Consul Imperium
Joined: 13 Jan 2005
Posts: 566
Location: New Orleans
Posted: Sat Apr 22, 2006 2:34 am Post subject: CrÜefest Chicago - Day One
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Well, where does one begin when telling the story of the past week. I have a feeling that it may take several journal entry sessions to get the whole story out, there are simply too many vignettes, too many magical moments, and far too many felonies, misdemeanors and crimes against nature to press into a single post.
So, shall we start at the beginning?
Lord Micah and I decided to get to the airport quite early. We felt that early arrival was vital considering my experience with airport security when I flew to Atlanta a year ago. Also of great concern was the uncertainty as to how security would react should they discover a two foot tall, bat winged, critter with a foot long bifurcated tongue hidden within my luggage. I was quite certain that bringing Daemon along on this trip would prove to be calamitous, but neither was I comfortable with leaving him for a week at the manor, unattended.
In an effort to ease our transition through security, I dressed in a manner rather inconsistent with my usual attire. It just seemed to me that a sport coat, dress jeans, and a dark blue casual shirt would cause me to seem a bit more innocuous. This plan worked flawlessly with one minor exception. When checking in, my bag proved to be seven pounds too heavy. Since Micah’s bag was light, the attendants suggested that we transfer something from my bag to his. I knew that pulling Daemon out of his secret compartment and transferring him to Micah’s bag would result in too many questions being asked, so I pulled my knee high platform boots out instead. The moment my boots became visible there were several gasps and an “Oh my god” and one of the ladies inquired, “Ya’ll must be performers huh?”. The only witty response that I could think of was, “Uh, yeah”. Other than this moment, our New Orleans departure was uneventful.
Arrival at O’Hare Airport in Chicago was slightly more exciting. It seemed that our pilot thought that an acrobatic landing would welcome the New Orleans lords to Chicago in grand style. After swooping and yawing the airplane from side to side on approach, he completed our landing by first plopping the plane forcefully onto only its right wing gear, riding only that one gear for a moment, then slamming the other two gears hard onto the runway. This uneven landing caused the plane to swerve noticeably on the runway but fortunately he quickly brought it under control. Not exactly a three point landing.
After disembarking the plane, Lord Micah and I made our way to baggage claim where we found Madame Morticia and Lady Lightning waiting. A moment of levity ensued just then, as Lord Micah was several paces ahead of me and turned the corner first. He told me later that there seemed to be a look of confusion in their eyes as they saw him walking up alone. They must have assumed that something had gone wrong and that I had not made the trip, or perhaps more likely, had been detained by security. As they saw me come around the corner a few moments later, I saw a look in their eyes that I swear was a mixture of both relief AND disappointment. I truly believe that for a brief moment they thought that they would be sparred the burden of dealing with me for a whole week.
Upon leaving the airport, the ladies inquired if we were hungry and since we both certainly were, they took us to a wonderful little diner where it was obvious that they had been before since everyone seemed to know them. We had some fantastic food and met a few of the employees who seemed to gather around wanting to get a look at the strange men from New Orleans. One gentleman, Christo, joined us at the table and I listened in as he and Madame babbled on in Greek. Since I do not speak the language, I can only assume that he was asking her where she had found the strays and why she had brought them to his fine establishment. Her excuse must have been a good one as he gifted us with a large box of doughnuts to take with us as we left. His shift must have just ended as we then dropped him off at his home. As we left, he gifted me with a large plastic bottle filled with a clear liquid that he claimed was Ouzo. Now, I must confess I have never come across Ouzo that came in a PLASTIC bottle so I eyed the liquid with great suspicion upon returning to the car. A general consensus was reached between Lord Micah, Lady Lightning and myself that it would be wise to test the suspicious liquid on Madame before any of us attempted to imbibe the plastic contained and strange smelling fluid. Since I have only consumed Ouzo once in my life (the result of which has caused me to classify it in the same category as I do the Devil’s Urine, Chartreuse), there would be little chance that I would sample it even should Madame survive the test sample.
Chaz ROCKS!!! :) :) :)
He has a journal on one of the boards. I couldn't help myself. I went on to see. A subject line struck me and I had to read. I nearly wet myself with laughter especially at the last few lines. I had to copy and paste it here (I've bolded what killed me):
Lord Chaz
Consul Imperium
Joined: 13 Jan 2005
Posts: 566
Location: New Orleans
Posted: Sat Apr 22, 2006 2:34 am Post subject: CrÜefest Chicago - Day One
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Well, where does one begin when telling the story of the past week. I have a feeling that it may take several journal entry sessions to get the whole story out, there are simply too many vignettes, too many magical moments, and far too many felonies, misdemeanors and crimes against nature to press into a single post.
So, shall we start at the beginning?
Lord Micah and I decided to get to the airport quite early. We felt that early arrival was vital considering my experience with airport security when I flew to Atlanta a year ago. Also of great concern was the uncertainty as to how security would react should they discover a two foot tall, bat winged, critter with a foot long bifurcated tongue hidden within my luggage. I was quite certain that bringing Daemon along on this trip would prove to be calamitous, but neither was I comfortable with leaving him for a week at the manor, unattended.
In an effort to ease our transition through security, I dressed in a manner rather inconsistent with my usual attire. It just seemed to me that a sport coat, dress jeans, and a dark blue casual shirt would cause me to seem a bit more innocuous. This plan worked flawlessly with one minor exception. When checking in, my bag proved to be seven pounds too heavy. Since Micah’s bag was light, the attendants suggested that we transfer something from my bag to his. I knew that pulling Daemon out of his secret compartment and transferring him to Micah’s bag would result in too many questions being asked, so I pulled my knee high platform boots out instead. The moment my boots became visible there were several gasps and an “Oh my god” and one of the ladies inquired, “Ya’ll must be performers huh?”. The only witty response that I could think of was, “Uh, yeah”. Other than this moment, our New Orleans departure was uneventful.
Arrival at O’Hare Airport in Chicago was slightly more exciting. It seemed that our pilot thought that an acrobatic landing would welcome the New Orleans lords to Chicago in grand style. After swooping and yawing the airplane from side to side on approach, he completed our landing by first plopping the plane forcefully onto only its right wing gear, riding only that one gear for a moment, then slamming the other two gears hard onto the runway. This uneven landing caused the plane to swerve noticeably on the runway but fortunately he quickly brought it under control. Not exactly a three point landing.
After disembarking the plane, Lord Micah and I made our way to baggage claim where we found Madame Morticia and Lady Lightning waiting. A moment of levity ensued just then, as Lord Micah was several paces ahead of me and turned the corner first. He told me later that there seemed to be a look of confusion in their eyes as they saw him walking up alone. They must have assumed that something had gone wrong and that I had not made the trip, or perhaps more likely, had been detained by security. As they saw me come around the corner a few moments later, I saw a look in their eyes that I swear was a mixture of both relief AND disappointment. I truly believe that for a brief moment they thought that they would be sparred the burden of dealing with me for a whole week.
Upon leaving the airport, the ladies inquired if we were hungry and since we both certainly were, they took us to a wonderful little diner where it was obvious that they had been before since everyone seemed to know them. We had some fantastic food and met a few of the employees who seemed to gather around wanting to get a look at the strange men from New Orleans. One gentleman, Christo, joined us at the table and I listened in as he and Madame babbled on in Greek. Since I do not speak the language, I can only assume that he was asking her where she had found the strays and why she had brought them to his fine establishment. Her excuse must have been a good one as he gifted us with a large box of doughnuts to take with us as we left. His shift must have just ended as we then dropped him off at his home. As we left, he gifted me with a large plastic bottle filled with a clear liquid that he claimed was Ouzo. Now, I must confess I have never come across Ouzo that came in a PLASTIC bottle so I eyed the liquid with great suspicion upon returning to the car. A general consensus was reached between Lord Micah, Lady Lightning and myself that it would be wise to test the suspicious liquid on Madame before any of us attempted to imbibe the plastic contained and strange smelling fluid. Since I have only consumed Ouzo once in my life (the result of which has caused me to classify it in the same category as I do the Devil’s Urine, Chartreuse), there would be little chance that I would sample it even should Madame survive the test sample.
Chaz ROCKS!!! :) :) :)
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Imaginary friends or ghosts?
So, I have always had this stance on this subject - children do not have imaginary friends, they see ghosts. I beleive that they are so open and innocent, non-judgemental and receptive that there is no boundaries for them to not see those who are here bt are meant for the other side. Not really sure when or why I formed this as I don't remember having imaginar friends, but, it is something I truly believe.
Interesting conversation at work today witha girl, relatively new - 2 weeks in who has a daughter who just turned 2 recently. Her babysitter called and was completely freaking out thinking the kid at 2 was either losing her mind or outright lying to the babysitter as the kid was going around having a fairly indepth conversation ( I supposse as indepth as a 2 year old can have) with herself, as if there was another child there. When the babysitter asked (as the all have to do), the child was shocked that she didn't see the boy that she was talking to. She explained to the babysitter that it's the same boy who has been trupping her as she runs down the long hardwood floor hallway (which her mom then said that she had said this before when she fell that "he tripped me" and they had been thinking she meant it was the cat.
Anyway, the mom was a bit creeped, but on the other hand, said something very interesting that I want to explore a bit more - she said, I think that we have a ghost! I said, I completely agree. I then said that I strongly feel that children don't have "imaginary friends" but that they simple see people, spirits, ghosts, however you want to term them that we can't. And waht really got my interest was that the mom came back with - Oh I totally think so too. Children her age haven't been clouded yet and are open to seeing things. hmmmmm....my thoughts exactly. Then she went on and said - I don't think he's out to harm her or us, but I'm not really sure I want him around either.
So, I'm going to do a bit of research in my library and see if there is anything I can come up with. In the meantime, I'll take in a tiger eye and hematite to her and see if she's open to that to either put it in the girls' pocket or if the could wear them as a necklace, in the just in case thing.
If anyone knows of places on the net that address this topic, please let me know so I can see if there's anything else that can be done maybe to help, protect or even cleanse.
Interesting conversation at work today witha girl, relatively new - 2 weeks in who has a daughter who just turned 2 recently. Her babysitter called and was completely freaking out thinking the kid at 2 was either losing her mind or outright lying to the babysitter as the kid was going around having a fairly indepth conversation ( I supposse as indepth as a 2 year old can have) with herself, as if there was another child there. When the babysitter asked (as the all have to do), the child was shocked that she didn't see the boy that she was talking to. She explained to the babysitter that it's the same boy who has been trupping her as she runs down the long hardwood floor hallway (which her mom then said that she had said this before when she fell that "he tripped me" and they had been thinking she meant it was the cat.
Anyway, the mom was a bit creeped, but on the other hand, said something very interesting that I want to explore a bit more - she said, I think that we have a ghost! I said, I completely agree. I then said that I strongly feel that children don't have "imaginary friends" but that they simple see people, spirits, ghosts, however you want to term them that we can't. And waht really got my interest was that the mom came back with - Oh I totally think so too. Children her age haven't been clouded yet and are open to seeing things. hmmmmm....my thoughts exactly. Then she went on and said - I don't think he's out to harm her or us, but I'm not really sure I want him around either.
So, I'm going to do a bit of research in my library and see if there is anything I can come up with. In the meantime, I'll take in a tiger eye and hematite to her and see if she's open to that to either put it in the girls' pocket or if the could wear them as a necklace, in the just in case thing.
If anyone knows of places on the net that address this topic, please let me know so I can see if there's anything else that can be done maybe to help, protect or even cleanse.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
A Wolf
So, here are a few things that I have found over the years and have kept close to heart about the wolf and why I feel strongly connected.
From "Animal Energies" by Gary Buffalo Horn Man and Sherry Firedancer:
There are several species of Wolf differing greatly in size, from 30 to 150 pounds. Before humans decimated their numbers, Wolves lived in a wide variety of climates from the arctic to the subtropics. All of their senses are excellent and well above human ability. The prey mostly on hoofed anmals, such as deer, moose and elk. Wolves hunt in packs, relying on endurance to run down weak and older animals. They have been known to run 35 miles a day in pursuit. With an extremely well developed societal organization, they act together to hunt and raise their young. They exercise a rigid hierarchy in their packs, with the dominant wolf calling the shots. There are no documented cases of a wild Wolf killing a human in North America, though there are cases that have been verified in Europe. Wolves actually perfer to avoid people. They are seldom aggressive towards each other and rarely do they engage in actual violence. Only when Wolves are having a dominance struggle or when a stay tries to infiltrate the pack will there be blood. (so me)
Wolf medicine can teach you to have a balance between your family's needs for you and your needs for you. Wolves are totally loyal to the pack, but do not ive up their identity to the pack. If Wolf has come into your life in some fashion, you are bein asked to look at where you are being too dependent and where you may be too independent. In both family and community, there needs to be a balane between you, me and us. Wold can help you learn this.
In Wolf terms, you can't be too loyal to the pack. In human terms, you can become too devoted to an idea, a group or family unit, particularly if the family is dysfnctional and robbing your power. If Wolf makes itself known to you, it may hold the message that it is time to break away from the pack you are in and start your own.
Also from "The Little Library of Earth Medicine - Wolf" by Kenneth Meadows:
Wolves are sensitive, artistic and intuitive - people to whom others turn for help. They value freedom and their own space, and are easily affected by others. They are philosophical, trusting, and genuine.
People of the Wolf Spirit intuitive, loyal, compassionate and protective, romantic, philosophical and adaptable nature that seeks to discover the true meaning or purpose of life. Emotional, perceptive and gentle, you often act instinctively rather than logically, and in times of difficulty, are always ready to offer sympathy and understanding to friends and colleagues who rely on you for emotional support.
Unfortunately, your natural empathy means you tend to absorb others' negative feelings, which can leave you emotionally drained. (so true!)
Trusting and unwordly, you are devoted to those close to you and can be easily hurt by those you love. Creative and sensitive, you have a highly developed aesthetic sense, and identify strongly with you creative or artistic endeavors, often perceiving criticism of your work as a personal attack. (SO TRUE AGAIN!)
In Heath matters, although drawn to natural remedies and preventative medicine, you enjoy food and drink, and tend to over-eat. You are therefore prone to unhealthy weight gain, ciculatory problems and high blood pressure (deadly accurate)
Wolf medicine is the courage to act according to your intuition and instincts rather than your intellect, and to be compassionate.
From "Animal Energies" by Gary Buffalo Horn Man and Sherry Firedancer:
There are several species of Wolf differing greatly in size, from 30 to 150 pounds. Before humans decimated their numbers, Wolves lived in a wide variety of climates from the arctic to the subtropics. All of their senses are excellent and well above human ability. The prey mostly on hoofed anmals, such as deer, moose and elk. Wolves hunt in packs, relying on endurance to run down weak and older animals. They have been known to run 35 miles a day in pursuit. With an extremely well developed societal organization, they act together to hunt and raise their young. They exercise a rigid hierarchy in their packs, with the dominant wolf calling the shots. There are no documented cases of a wild Wolf killing a human in North America, though there are cases that have been verified in Europe. Wolves actually perfer to avoid people. They are seldom aggressive towards each other and rarely do they engage in actual violence. Only when Wolves are having a dominance struggle or when a stay tries to infiltrate the pack will there be blood. (so me)
Wolf medicine can teach you to have a balance between your family's needs for you and your needs for you. Wolves are totally loyal to the pack, but do not ive up their identity to the pack. If Wolf has come into your life in some fashion, you are bein asked to look at where you are being too dependent and where you may be too independent. In both family and community, there needs to be a balane between you, me and us. Wold can help you learn this.
In Wolf terms, you can't be too loyal to the pack. In human terms, you can become too devoted to an idea, a group or family unit, particularly if the family is dysfnctional and robbing your power. If Wolf makes itself known to you, it may hold the message that it is time to break away from the pack you are in and start your own.
Also from "The Little Library of Earth Medicine - Wolf" by Kenneth Meadows:
Wolves are sensitive, artistic and intuitive - people to whom others turn for help. They value freedom and their own space, and are easily affected by others. They are philosophical, trusting, and genuine.
People of the Wolf Spirit intuitive, loyal, compassionate and protective, romantic, philosophical and adaptable nature that seeks to discover the true meaning or purpose of life. Emotional, perceptive and gentle, you often act instinctively rather than logically, and in times of difficulty, are always ready to offer sympathy and understanding to friends and colleagues who rely on you for emotional support.
Unfortunately, your natural empathy means you tend to absorb others' negative feelings, which can leave you emotionally drained. (so true!)
Trusting and unwordly, you are devoted to those close to you and can be easily hurt by those you love. Creative and sensitive, you have a highly developed aesthetic sense, and identify strongly with you creative or artistic endeavors, often perceiving criticism of your work as a personal attack. (SO TRUE AGAIN!)
In Heath matters, although drawn to natural remedies and preventative medicine, you enjoy food and drink, and tend to over-eat. You are therefore prone to unhealthy weight gain, ciculatory problems and high blood pressure (deadly accurate)
Wolf medicine is the courage to act according to your intuition and instincts rather than your intellect, and to be compassionate.
Friday, July 21, 2006
Nicknames
I have had a few nick names, or screen names through the years. All of them have been derived from a story, and generally given to me by a guy.
Nova Scotia International Tattoo 1994 was my first tattoo and first real, true understanding of "partying". I was filling in at the dal music dept. main office for the secretary who was out on maternity leave furing the day - working 8am to 5pm (for Dr. Kemp who was also the director of the Tattoo choir and knew we were partying away the night and who would have had no give during the day if I wasn't on top of things). Then I would have to boot it down to the Halifax metro center, change and be stage ready by 6pm. That was the first year of the British Royal Marine Band. What an interesting group of guys! Anyway, as much as Bonnie was in avoidance mode, Jane and I were totally sucked in by them. Funny, decent enough dancers and could hold their liquor. Show was 7 to 10pm and from 10pm until the bars downtown closed, we would be out dancing and partying. It was 10 straight days. I only drank one night. Every other night I would only drink water while partying so I wouldn't be in trouble in the morning - all I had to worry about was battling tiredness - an everyday thing. :)
Anyway, the Deal Band were in the dome I think it was night 4. And over the course of the night, one of them started calling me a 'terror'. Bonnie and Jane picked up on it, and seeing as it's a play on my name of Terri and when you shorten that up to Terr, it basically came out after that all the time from Bonnie & Jane as Terror. So, for a number of years, well about 3 or 4, my computer handle was a version of that. It's a good thing I don't use it anymore, considering all of the problems around the world, I'm sure I'd have been put on a watch dog list long ago! hehehe. Anyway, every so often Bonnie still calls me that and ever so often, I call myself that! hehehe But, that was a long time ago and admittedly, I was a very angry and agressive person. I still am, but not all the time. I used t be pissed, angry and agressive all the time, now it's (generally) only when I'm pushed past me limit.
icewolf is very much me, but I honestly didn't think of it myself. It's a total case of fate. I had always been drawn to wolves, but I honestly didn't really do a lot of research on them until I was christened with the name, and then realized how well it fit! Way back when - 1996 or 1997 there was the start f the chat rooms online. I don't even remember the name of the place, but it was a website where you could pick your topic of interest and "chat" with people ala messenger, but en masse. Anyhoos, my topic of choice at the time was pro wrestling. There was a varied group of people from all over the world and there was a core of about 10 or 12 of us. I still wonder about those people and who'se where and doing what. Anyway, there were the 'war-room women' who actually went on to go to wrestling school with the fablous moolah. There were a couple of magazine writers, the majority of us were in college or university and a handful were in high school. The core group exchanged cards and letters and phone calls all the time - gifts for birthdays and xmas were a must. It was an awesome group. We often talked about meeting in a central place en masse, but never did. I did meet up with a few of them from that group at various times and places though, so that was a nice confirmation of people and all good experiences. Anyway, one of the guys in the gang was at college taking accounting and was rather bored in a class one day and realized that my phone # didn't have any zeros or ones, so the numbers of my phone # in Hfx were all letter based, so he said he played with the #'s for the full 3 hour class and figured out that my phone # - 423-9653 spelled out icewolf. I thought that was incredibly cool. So much so that I started adopting it in other online logins and such. Then I started reseraching the spiritual origins of the wolf and what wolves mean in the native american world, etc and there was no doubt about it - icewolf was me - who I was. I am still so thankful that he was bored that day, otherwise, I may not have found my inner spirit animal!
Next post, I'll try to post a bit about the 'inner wolf' :)
Nova Scotia International Tattoo 1994 was my first tattoo and first real, true understanding of "partying". I was filling in at the dal music dept. main office for the secretary who was out on maternity leave furing the day - working 8am to 5pm (for Dr. Kemp who was also the director of the Tattoo choir and knew we were partying away the night and who would have had no give during the day if I wasn't on top of things). Then I would have to boot it down to the Halifax metro center, change and be stage ready by 6pm. That was the first year of the British Royal Marine Band. What an interesting group of guys! Anyway, as much as Bonnie was in avoidance mode, Jane and I were totally sucked in by them. Funny, decent enough dancers and could hold their liquor. Show was 7 to 10pm and from 10pm until the bars downtown closed, we would be out dancing and partying. It was 10 straight days. I only drank one night. Every other night I would only drink water while partying so I wouldn't be in trouble in the morning - all I had to worry about was battling tiredness - an everyday thing. :)
Anyway, the Deal Band were in the dome I think it was night 4. And over the course of the night, one of them started calling me a 'terror'. Bonnie and Jane picked up on it, and seeing as it's a play on my name of Terri and when you shorten that up to Terr, it basically came out after that all the time from Bonnie & Jane as Terror. So, for a number of years, well about 3 or 4, my computer handle was a version of that. It's a good thing I don't use it anymore, considering all of the problems around the world, I'm sure I'd have been put on a watch dog list long ago! hehehe. Anyway, every so often Bonnie still calls me that and ever so often, I call myself that! hehehe But, that was a long time ago and admittedly, I was a very angry and agressive person. I still am, but not all the time. I used t be pissed, angry and agressive all the time, now it's (generally) only when I'm pushed past me limit.
icewolf is very much me, but I honestly didn't think of it myself. It's a total case of fate. I had always been drawn to wolves, but I honestly didn't really do a lot of research on them until I was christened with the name, and then realized how well it fit! Way back when - 1996 or 1997 there was the start f the chat rooms online. I don't even remember the name of the place, but it was a website where you could pick your topic of interest and "chat" with people ala messenger, but en masse. Anyhoos, my topic of choice at the time was pro wrestling. There was a varied group of people from all over the world and there was a core of about 10 or 12 of us. I still wonder about those people and who'se where and doing what. Anyway, there were the 'war-room women' who actually went on to go to wrestling school with the fablous moolah. There were a couple of magazine writers, the majority of us were in college or university and a handful were in high school. The core group exchanged cards and letters and phone calls all the time - gifts for birthdays and xmas were a must. It was an awesome group. We often talked about meeting in a central place en masse, but never did. I did meet up with a few of them from that group at various times and places though, so that was a nice confirmation of people and all good experiences. Anyway, one of the guys in the gang was at college taking accounting and was rather bored in a class one day and realized that my phone # didn't have any zeros or ones, so the numbers of my phone # in Hfx were all letter based, so he said he played with the #'s for the full 3 hour class and figured out that my phone # - 423-9653 spelled out icewolf. I thought that was incredibly cool. So much so that I started adopting it in other online logins and such. Then I started reseraching the spiritual origins of the wolf and what wolves mean in the native american world, etc and there was no doubt about it - icewolf was me - who I was. I am still so thankful that he was bored that day, otherwise, I may not have found my inner spirit animal!
Next post, I'll try to post a bit about the 'inner wolf' :)
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Long time no post
Well, sorry for the delay folks. Work got so busy a couple of weeks ago that there was no time to goof off and make posts at work and I was too tired and not wanting to think at all (or couldn't turn off the work brain to think about anything else) when I get home.
Anyway, we were able to get away for a couple of days this past Friday and Saturday, which I was sooooo looking forward to after working two weeks of 50+ hours for me and Van both. While the hours are rough, the rewards are nice in the form of a new 32" TV that Van bought for us to enjoy at some point when we can get back to not working all the time! :)
Anyway, F'ton this past weekend was beyond hot. I enjoy hot - I really do - but I like it at the Lake where when I get too hot and sticky, I can jump in and cool off. In F'ton, we were staying with a friend, who is really great, but moved in to a house where only 1 window opened...and it's a house with a tin roof...so, TL went out and bought a couple of fans just to survive. :)
A bonus though is that we were able to sit out on their back patio and play poker until about 10pm Friday night. Hot, sticky, no breeze so the cards stayed where you put them perfect except for the bugs outside night. Really enjoyed that. Also played poker outside on Saturday afternoon and got sun stroke, but an awesome tan and lots of laughs.
Looking forward to this coming Thursday night when Shakti and E are coming over to the house for a BBQ. It'll be E's first time here and Shakti's 2nd. She's really just coming back to visit the babies (who really don't like thunder and lightning storms). We'll talk, eat and talk some more knowing us :) It'll be good - rejuvenating!
Then, we work Friday and Saturday s we can have Sunday off, when we're hoping the weather will be good enough to go to the lake with a few friends and enjoy the heat, water and food. If it's not good enough weather, then we'll stay in town and have them over to the house for supper as again, a couple of them haven't been here before.
Anyhoos, that's about it from me. Not feeling very connected lately - too many computer ions floating around I guess hehehe. Perhaps if I'm so inclined, I'll tell soon the story of how icewolf came about.
Anyway, we were able to get away for a couple of days this past Friday and Saturday, which I was sooooo looking forward to after working two weeks of 50+ hours for me and Van both. While the hours are rough, the rewards are nice in the form of a new 32" TV that Van bought for us to enjoy at some point when we can get back to not working all the time! :)
Anyway, F'ton this past weekend was beyond hot. I enjoy hot - I really do - but I like it at the Lake where when I get too hot and sticky, I can jump in and cool off. In F'ton, we were staying with a friend, who is really great, but moved in to a house where only 1 window opened...and it's a house with a tin roof...so, TL went out and bought a couple of fans just to survive. :)
A bonus though is that we were able to sit out on their back patio and play poker until about 10pm Friday night. Hot, sticky, no breeze so the cards stayed where you put them perfect except for the bugs outside night. Really enjoyed that. Also played poker outside on Saturday afternoon and got sun stroke, but an awesome tan and lots of laughs.
Looking forward to this coming Thursday night when Shakti and E are coming over to the house for a BBQ. It'll be E's first time here and Shakti's 2nd. She's really just coming back to visit the babies (who really don't like thunder and lightning storms). We'll talk, eat and talk some more knowing us :) It'll be good - rejuvenating!
Then, we work Friday and Saturday s we can have Sunday off, when we're hoping the weather will be good enough to go to the lake with a few friends and enjoy the heat, water and food. If it's not good enough weather, then we'll stay in town and have them over to the house for supper as again, a couple of them haven't been here before.
Anyhoos, that's about it from me. Not feeling very connected lately - too many computer ions floating around I guess hehehe. Perhaps if I'm so inclined, I'll tell soon the story of how icewolf came about.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
A little disheartened
Well, I had an experience this morning that has left me a little disheartened with how my life is going, but I'm trying to look at it positively. It's tough though, especially since I have in the past been blocked like this, only after I've made a really, REALLY bad decision.
In the past it was evident that Spirit and I had a system going. All through university and up until, well, 3 or 4 years ago I guess, if I made the right decision and did something well, I got a reward - a raise, a win, a trip, whatever. If I made the wrong choice, a bad decision, etc, I got something taken away, or got blocks put up galore. So, I'm not really sure what it is that I've done or decided wrong, but it's been a bit thick as of late. Medical issues, work issues and many financial issues. Road blocks - potholes - big and small are everywhere on my path right now. Not sure what it was that prompted it or how to get around them, so I'm getting a bit disheartened. Oh well. Tally ho! What's the worst Spirit can do? Put me in another life altering car accident? Bring it on! Still haven't settled the 1st one yet! :P Then again, I'm not wishing it upon myself and certinaly don't want ti to get that bad, so perhaps I'll just put it out there that I'd like a clue or two or few as to what it is that needs fixing and I'll try working on it! :)
In the past it was evident that Spirit and I had a system going. All through university and up until, well, 3 or 4 years ago I guess, if I made the right decision and did something well, I got a reward - a raise, a win, a trip, whatever. If I made the wrong choice, a bad decision, etc, I got something taken away, or got blocks put up galore. So, I'm not really sure what it is that I've done or decided wrong, but it's been a bit thick as of late. Medical issues, work issues and many financial issues. Road blocks - potholes - big and small are everywhere on my path right now. Not sure what it was that prompted it or how to get around them, so I'm getting a bit disheartened. Oh well. Tally ho! What's the worst Spirit can do? Put me in another life altering car accident? Bring it on! Still haven't settled the 1st one yet! :P Then again, I'm not wishing it upon myself and certinaly don't want ti to get that bad, so perhaps I'll just put it out there that I'd like a clue or two or few as to what it is that needs fixing and I'll try working on it! :)
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Okay, I'm back!
Okay, so I think I might be back! Online time at work is next to nil, so I'm updating late tonight at home. :)
Anyhoos, so the Boom...I believe we both heard the same thing. Slightly different description, but basically the same thing, and while we live very close to both the pulp mill and ocean steel, there is no way that that kind of a boom could have happened once, let alone twice without A) it hitting the news and B)it not waking up everyone in the city. So, I think it is more of a pointed type of occurrance. We both honestly believe the source of the Boom is directly outside of our bedroom window, which is why it's ear drum busting when we are tappen in to it.
I think it happens more than the two times we've tapped in to it. I think it happens regularly, but you have to be on a different plane to hear it - which, when you hit a specific sleep zone where you can tap in to the higher plane, do astral travel, etc, I think is when we can hear it too, but with everything "other-worldly" it happens whether we're aware of it or not. :)
Van has a theory about it. I kinda think he might be on to something. He thinks there is a portal outside the window. A portal to what is anyone's guess and who or what is using it is also anyone's guess. He was awake before the "boom" and said he heard what could be described as something driving down the entire length of the street, but that it never once was on the ground. Then, when it hit the right speed at the right time and at the right place (in front of our place) BOOM!! The portal opens and whatever or whomever can use it. I think he might be on to something there. In my mind, it makes sense, but that could because I am picturing how they did it in the "Back to the Future" movies. :) Anyway, I think it's a plausible theory.
Anybody else have any thoughts?
Anyhoos, so the Boom...I believe we both heard the same thing. Slightly different description, but basically the same thing, and while we live very close to both the pulp mill and ocean steel, there is no way that that kind of a boom could have happened once, let alone twice without A) it hitting the news and B)it not waking up everyone in the city. So, I think it is more of a pointed type of occurrance. We both honestly believe the source of the Boom is directly outside of our bedroom window, which is why it's ear drum busting when we are tappen in to it.
I think it happens more than the two times we've tapped in to it. I think it happens regularly, but you have to be on a different plane to hear it - which, when you hit a specific sleep zone where you can tap in to the higher plane, do astral travel, etc, I think is when we can hear it too, but with everything "other-worldly" it happens whether we're aware of it or not. :)
Van has a theory about it. I kinda think he might be on to something. He thinks there is a portal outside the window. A portal to what is anyone's guess and who or what is using it is also anyone's guess. He was awake before the "boom" and said he heard what could be described as something driving down the entire length of the street, but that it never once was on the ground. Then, when it hit the right speed at the right time and at the right place (in front of our place) BOOM!! The portal opens and whatever or whomever can use it. I think he might be on to something there. In my mind, it makes sense, but that could because I am picturing how they did it in the "Back to the Future" movies. :) Anyway, I think it's a plausible theory.
Anybody else have any thoughts?
Painful
The girl singing right now on Canadian Idol - Nancy Silverman is as painful as my migranes were last week!! HORRIFICALLY NASAL!!!
Friday, June 23, 2006
Sorry
Sorry for the lack of posts. I've been battling a migrane and had to go to the ER to get some relief and haven't quite been the same since. Hopefully I'll get back to more regular posting on the weekend.
In the meantime, I can now say I'm not the only one who has heard the BOOM! Van was awake around 2am this morning and around 2:15, heard basically the same thing I did - what basically can be described as a sonic boom, with a reverberation of quite a significant timeframe. Last night, I never moved, same as he didn't the night I heard it. He has an interesting theory. I'll share with you when I have another crack at updating this on the weekend.
Very cool! At least I'm not the only one now!
In the meantime, I can now say I'm not the only one who has heard the BOOM! Van was awake around 2am this morning and around 2:15, heard basically the same thing I did - what basically can be described as a sonic boom, with a reverberation of quite a significant timeframe. Last night, I never moved, same as he didn't the night I heard it. He has an interesting theory. I'll share with you when I have another crack at updating this on the weekend.
Very cool! At least I'm not the only one now!
Monday, June 19, 2006
Boom
So, this past Thursday night was a bit of a weird night. As I went to bed and tried to settle, I found that I was feeling 'buzzy' - restless (usual) and the chakras were buzzing. I did fall asleep and was having weird dreams. Can't remember all of them, but there was a dream about mom and dad's house. I was woken up very suddenly at 3:57a.m. by what can only decribe as a very loud "Boom". Like an exlosion, or like there was a sonic boom from the sound barrier being broken. The boom was very loud and then there was kind of a sucking noise after it as is the air was being sucked out of the city. As we live close to the mill, the first thing that went through my mind was that the Pulp Mill blew up and we were going to die, but Van never woke up. He's normally a very light sleeper, and I couldn't beleive he hadn't sat straight up over it like I did! I linked a few times, put my hand on his shoulder and just tried to calm my breathing. Then, the thought of mom and dad's house came in my mind again, but it was fleeting as I then started to wrack my brain as to what the boom could have been from. After about 5 minutes and literally, not one other sound in this city was made, I got up to go to the bathroom and as son as I got up from the side of the bed, Van woke up. Odd. He woke up as soon as I moved from the bed, but not for that massive sonic boom?!
It was in the bathroom that I started to wonder if it was part of a dream. It certainly didn't seem like it. I heard the fadings of the boom after I was awake, as well as the sucking out of the air, so I really didn't think so, but there was no other explanation. I went to every window in the house and saw nothing out of the ordinary, so went back to bed and basically tried ot come to terms that it was something I dreamt up.
Friday, my mother informed me that 6 young men were arrested on their property in the wee hours of the morning. These guys had tried to get in to a couple of the houses in the neighbourhood, but were picked up on their property by the police, around about 4am. hmmm... mom said that they didn't notice any damage to their property. So, I'm thinking the boom was them getting caught. I hope so at least! Upon learning of the events that happened, I told Spirit that I'm listening again, so Spirit doesn't literally have to blow out my ear drums to get my attention or to get me to hear!!! :)
It was in the bathroom that I started to wonder if it was part of a dream. It certainly didn't seem like it. I heard the fadings of the boom after I was awake, as well as the sucking out of the air, so I really didn't think so, but there was no other explanation. I went to every window in the house and saw nothing out of the ordinary, so went back to bed and basically tried ot come to terms that it was something I dreamt up.
Friday, my mother informed me that 6 young men were arrested on their property in the wee hours of the morning. These guys had tried to get in to a couple of the houses in the neighbourhood, but were picked up on their property by the police, around about 4am. hmmm... mom said that they didn't notice any damage to their property. So, I'm thinking the boom was them getting caught. I hope so at least! Upon learning of the events that happened, I told Spirit that I'm listening again, so Spirit doesn't literally have to blow out my ear drums to get my attention or to get me to hear!!! :)
Sunday, June 18, 2006
One Phone Call
Ever just get one phone call that changes everything? I get those every now and then. Blessings are mine that I usually get them when I most need them. I most needed one in the past month and got one.
E called. E never called before! We have emailed, but never called. And, she invited me for supper at her house! Yowzas! I knew it was going to be a good night. I hoped I would be filled with soul food. Was I ever! There were three of us. Always a godo number for that kind of night. It was 3 women in Hfx. 4 never seemed to work well. Then it was 2. This was once again 3. A divine trinity. I'm not really sure how much food was ingested, but the conversation was divine and my soul truly was filled.
E, Shakti and me. We talked, helped, thought and supported. We gave viewpoints and we took viewpoints. We discussed how difficult it was to find a balance in this life and how it was nice to be in a place where there were not any judgements because of something you say or believe.
Then my hubby called - work was done and should he catch a bus home. E took the phone from me and invited him up to her house to visit. He came. He enjoyed. I was sooo happy!
I had only been listening to spirit again for a couple of weeks. I had asked spirit to help me find my way - guide me to where I needed to be to find my true spirit once again and then E called and this dinner was upon me.
I had a solidifying moment. In the middle of a story E told, I had a vision. I coudl see exactly the thing she was speaking of. She had not described it fully, just mentioned what the thing was. I saw it clear as if it were on the table in front of me. I interrupted her story (as often I do with people) and said did it look like this? and described what I saw. She was shocked. The look on her face priceless. She said she got goosebumps. I got positive re-inforcement from Spirit that I am not only listening once again, but seeing things more clearly again as well.
E called. E never called before! We have emailed, but never called. And, she invited me for supper at her house! Yowzas! I knew it was going to be a good night. I hoped I would be filled with soul food. Was I ever! There were three of us. Always a godo number for that kind of night. It was 3 women in Hfx. 4 never seemed to work well. Then it was 2. This was once again 3. A divine trinity. I'm not really sure how much food was ingested, but the conversation was divine and my soul truly was filled.
E, Shakti and me. We talked, helped, thought and supported. We gave viewpoints and we took viewpoints. We discussed how difficult it was to find a balance in this life and how it was nice to be in a place where there were not any judgements because of something you say or believe.
Then my hubby called - work was done and should he catch a bus home. E took the phone from me and invited him up to her house to visit. He came. He enjoyed. I was sooo happy!
I had only been listening to spirit again for a couple of weeks. I had asked spirit to help me find my way - guide me to where I needed to be to find my true spirit once again and then E called and this dinner was upon me.
I had a solidifying moment. In the middle of a story E told, I had a vision. I coudl see exactly the thing she was speaking of. She had not described it fully, just mentioned what the thing was. I saw it clear as if it were on the table in front of me. I interrupted her story (as often I do with people) and said did it look like this? and described what I saw. She was shocked. The look on her face priceless. She said she got goosebumps. I got positive re-inforcement from Spirit that I am not only listening once again, but seeing things more clearly again as well.
Spirit
I should start off by saying that I am a church organist and choir director. I have been one since I was 15 year old and have played a church service, wedding or a funeral in just about every single denomination of church in Canada. I was born and raised protestant - United Church of Canada and am still employed by the United Church of Canada. But I make no bones to anyone - church people especially - I am only there because it's a job and you pay me.
I find no enjoyment out of going to church. I find very little enjoyment out of working with the people in a church. The politics and backstabbing, lying and deceit that happen in a church would make your stomach and hair curl. The only enjoyment I get out of staying is working with the kids in the junior choirs that I've had through the years. They are generally not old enough yet to know what to do to deliberately hurt someone or to be vengeful. They are there for the enjoyment and fellowship with friends. In general, people who go to church or people who call themselves "religious" are not. They say they believe in God - wow! That's quite a God!
Not too many people I beleive truly understand the committment of being a worker in a church. Some people do it because it's expected of them in their faith. Others do it because they truly feel the need to serve God and their fellow man. I am there every single weekend (except 4) out of the year for regular services, every single Thursday night (except July & August) of the year for senior and junior choir practices, every single holiday (Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving are traditional "family and travel" times - I would be tarred and feathered if I took vacation and travelled during those times or the month leading up to them - every Sunday in Advent (leading to Christmas) for special services and every Wednesday night in Lent (leading to Easter) for special services, plus every Sunday morning for a minimum of an hour before service and a half hour after (if I don't have another choir practice) and get to take home around $125 a week for it. I don't do it because I love it, but because it provides a medical benefits coverage that my "day job" does not have. Not because I want to be there.
I do all of the above and I do not consider myself to be religious. I don't much like what the church has to say about "God". I have in my time at various worship services found things I like. I find that I am a melting pot of the things that I have learned along the way. If I had to pin point myself to being one "religion", I cold not do that. I consider myself to be "Spiritual" and that's the best way I can explain it.
I beleive there to be a a higher power. What you want to call it is up to you. Most of the time I reference it simply as "Spirit", though sometimes for the sake of those around me, I'll refernce Spirit as 'God'. Some call it "Goddess", "Mother", "Mother Earth", "Budda", "Allah" etc. To me, we are all referencing the same thing, jsut in different ways. I believe that no matter how you address this higher power, it listens and responds. Whether you hear it or work with it, is once again up to you. I used to talk to Spirit often. I suppose I still do, I just haven't been listening to Spirit as of late. i'm starting to again though. And as I do, I find that I'm starting to find a more solid footing once again. Funny that.
I find no enjoyment out of going to church. I find very little enjoyment out of working with the people in a church. The politics and backstabbing, lying and deceit that happen in a church would make your stomach and hair curl. The only enjoyment I get out of staying is working with the kids in the junior choirs that I've had through the years. They are generally not old enough yet to know what to do to deliberately hurt someone or to be vengeful. They are there for the enjoyment and fellowship with friends. In general, people who go to church or people who call themselves "religious" are not. They say they believe in God - wow! That's quite a God!
Not too many people I beleive truly understand the committment of being a worker in a church. Some people do it because it's expected of them in their faith. Others do it because they truly feel the need to serve God and their fellow man. I am there every single weekend (except 4) out of the year for regular services, every single Thursday night (except July & August) of the year for senior and junior choir practices, every single holiday (Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving are traditional "family and travel" times - I would be tarred and feathered if I took vacation and travelled during those times or the month leading up to them - every Sunday in Advent (leading to Christmas) for special services and every Wednesday night in Lent (leading to Easter) for special services, plus every Sunday morning for a minimum of an hour before service and a half hour after (if I don't have another choir practice) and get to take home around $125 a week for it. I don't do it because I love it, but because it provides a medical benefits coverage that my "day job" does not have. Not because I want to be there.
I do all of the above and I do not consider myself to be religious. I don't much like what the church has to say about "God". I have in my time at various worship services found things I like. I find that I am a melting pot of the things that I have learned along the way. If I had to pin point myself to being one "religion", I cold not do that. I consider myself to be "Spiritual" and that's the best way I can explain it.
I beleive there to be a a higher power. What you want to call it is up to you. Most of the time I reference it simply as "Spirit", though sometimes for the sake of those around me, I'll refernce Spirit as 'God'. Some call it "Goddess", "Mother", "Mother Earth", "Budda", "Allah" etc. To me, we are all referencing the same thing, jsut in different ways. I believe that no matter how you address this higher power, it listens and responds. Whether you hear it or work with it, is once again up to you. I used to talk to Spirit often. I suppose I still do, I just haven't been listening to Spirit as of late. i'm starting to again though. And as I do, I find that I'm starting to find a more solid footing once again. Funny that.
Starting Fresh
I have thought long and hard about re-joining the blogging world, and I've decided I'd give it another shot, but doing so in a different light this time.
I had been feeling very disconnected with myself and with my spirit in the past little while. Various things have been happening and each time, I found myself seeking out Spiritual comfort. Not through or at church - that is one of my jobs and there are many changes going down there that is helping to throw me off balance, but through the things I've learned in the past and have forgotten about or discarded.
Luckily for me, I have good friends - powerful friends - who whether by their own design or mine know when I need a swift kick in the butt.
The momentum started when I went to Hfx in April with Van to see Bonnie. A few things happened, reconnections, etc. and at dinner, she met up with some past aquaintences from the fellowhip. It brought back memories. Reminders of things said and done in the past that helped me then to get through some things. Things that I once again felt a push toward. I picked up a few of the books at home and tried to re-connect, but never really had the time or the energy to really get back in to the swing of things.
Then, the ball really started rolling a couple of weeks ago when out of the blue I got an email from E saying she needed to re-connect with 'the girls'. I got that buzz around the crown of my head and a smile in my heart and knew that it was going to be a special night when we would finally get together.
We did - last week, and since then, I have found my connection to myself - my higher self and to Spirit start to strengthen again and quickly.
I'm hoping to use this place as a place to share some things. If you like them, great! Come back - maybe I'll have some more thoughts down here again soon. If you don't, please don't let the next button on your browser go without use. To quote a 16 year old student of mine, "I'm clearing out the bullshit in my life". Please don't add to my pile. :)
I had been feeling very disconnected with myself and with my spirit in the past little while. Various things have been happening and each time, I found myself seeking out Spiritual comfort. Not through or at church - that is one of my jobs and there are many changes going down there that is helping to throw me off balance, but through the things I've learned in the past and have forgotten about or discarded.
Luckily for me, I have good friends - powerful friends - who whether by their own design or mine know when I need a swift kick in the butt.
The momentum started when I went to Hfx in April with Van to see Bonnie. A few things happened, reconnections, etc. and at dinner, she met up with some past aquaintences from the fellowhip. It brought back memories. Reminders of things said and done in the past that helped me then to get through some things. Things that I once again felt a push toward. I picked up a few of the books at home and tried to re-connect, but never really had the time or the energy to really get back in to the swing of things.
Then, the ball really started rolling a couple of weeks ago when out of the blue I got an email from E saying she needed to re-connect with 'the girls'. I got that buzz around the crown of my head and a smile in my heart and knew that it was going to be a special night when we would finally get together.
We did - last week, and since then, I have found my connection to myself - my higher self and to Spirit start to strengthen again and quickly.
I'm hoping to use this place as a place to share some things. If you like them, great! Come back - maybe I'll have some more thoughts down here again soon. If you don't, please don't let the next button on your browser go without use. To quote a 16 year old student of mine, "I'm clearing out the bullshit in my life". Please don't add to my pile. :)
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