cleaning frenzy

So, I'm in the midst of a cleaning frenzy and needed a bit of a rest.

I'm getting ready to host readings in the back room with Rev. Mae this weekend. I hope it all goes well! I still have to get the materials printed and the binders filled.

I'm getting soooo antsy. This is not good since we're just going into the winter. :(

I can't wait to get the show on the road for Chicago, but anxiety is starting to hit a bit. I'm just hoping that it doesn't push me over my anxiety edge. I didn't really take that into account in getting myself in to this situation.

Not overly happy with how things are going at work. It's not that they are bad, it's just that they aren't good either. Lots to do in too little time, which is what everyone complains about in any job, so I wouldn't get anything differnet anywhere else, but... seriously... doesn't it have to be this way all the time?!

Doug's funeral was today. I feel bad that it is on Angela's birthday, but at least it's one way for her to feel closer to him now that he's gone.

i looked at El today and couldn't get over how much she and mom are alike. I really wish that mom could just get over it, but that will never happen. The other thing I don't understand is how she can forgive Gladys, but seemingly not Eleanor, whom I dont think did as nasty to mom from what I've been told through the years. Who knows?

Ganky is failing again fairly quickly. I noticed it in his voice today - very weak in his voice. He now sounds like an old man.

Reality checks left and right last night and today. Makes ya re-think things. My problem is I re-think, re-think and over-think and then can't decide. *le sigh*

Maybe I'll take things easy and let the decisions be made for me for once...