the saying is so true.
When I look back on the things that I have wished for, I've always gotten them, but they have never been what I expected, thought I wanted or ended up wanting at the time.
I had gone a LONG time without making wishes, or trying to obtain something for varying reasons. I told myself that it was because I didn't want to be disappointed. I made a wish about this time last year...or maybe in May of last year. It came "true" almost instantly, but the reality of the wish wouldn't be apparent until almost a year later. The wish is now coming close to full fruition and yet again, it's not what I thought, expected or hoped for. *wry smile* I should know better, and I should still be happy, but the reality is that I am not yet sure if I am still happy or not about it.
I guess I'll only know results when it is completed in full. Until then, prep & dreaming. Dreaming is different than wishing as it's the impossible. Wishes are possible.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
don't know why
don't know why I stopped working out. 7 years ago, I started working out to loose weight after the accident. I woudl get up at 8am and be out the door by 8:15am and go for a 45minute to 1hour walk. I got with a lifestyle coach, walked, worked out with an exercise ball, never did join a gym, stopped drinking pop and eating refined sugar. I started slow and then worked my way up to 2 hour long walks per day morning and night, plus a half hour of isometric work with the ball and eating basically white meat and veggies. I started on April 4, 2004. By July 1st 2004 I had lost 40lbs. I never really liked working out, but I was getting results I REALLY liked. So, I'm not really sure why I stopped. I met a guy and married him. He started spoiling me - eating out, bringing home treats and didn't care what I weighed. I packed on the 40lbs again and kept on going. On March 7th, I was 80lbs heavier than I was when I met Van. That's like carrying around a 12 year old all the time.
So, when the snow finally (mostly) melted, I started walking again. It has been 10 days. I have lost 10lbs. Not a bad start, considering I haven't made a drastic change to the exercising like I did last time. I do minimal to no isometric exercises and only made it up to an hour long walk the past 3 days. yesterday I started doing some interval prints on Thornbrough. Today, I did 2 interval sprints on Thornbrough and 1 on Mount Pleasant. I hope to do the 2 on Thornbrough tomorrow and add another one on Mount Pleasant. I think it's coming off faster this time because I have even mroe to come off. I don't know. I know that it has gone from 0 to 90 out of a hundred for me in only a coupel of days. I am obsessed with getting up and going out for a walk in the morning. I didn't get up early enough on Sunday to get one in before church and I was an absolute bitch for the whole day. I finally took off around 6:30pm and did only a half hour, but super intensive walk with 3 major hills.
I am now obsessed with a couple of goals. I want to run the entire length of thornbrough by April 8th. I want to loose another 10lbs by April 9th, so I can say I lost 20lbs before my first adjudication gig. That was my goal back in November - lose 20lbs and did absolutely NOTHING toward the goal until March 21st. I am obsessed with making 20lbs in 3 weeks. The lifestyle coach last time said rule of thumb is 10lbs = 1 size in clothing. So far, she's quite right. My 5X shirts are more than baggy and my 4X shirts are starting to get baggy too. The pants are falling off in the 22s that I had been tight in January. The 20 Canadians are just right. The 18 Americans are just right to loose, depending on how much I sit.
I have been tryign to eat better - more veggies and less refined sugars. Today I had major gastro-intestinal issues, which I had the last time I got on one of these kicks. Should be interesting to see how that settles itself out or if it does because that was a problem the whole time last time.
So, I realize that this will not be easy to keep up over the month of festivals - the 2 that I am adjudicating at as well as the 2 week long one here because when you are away from home, you eat out. The festivals that are paying for my room also want me to eat at the hotel restaurant and charge it to the room, which they will then pay. That's not exactly healthy. So, we'll see. I'm hoping that I will at least be able to get in 1 good walk a day while away, even if I have to wake up way too early to be human. :)
So far, I'm enjoying my exercise time. That's a first. We'll see if it lasts. All I know is that I have to do something and I have to do it now. I should have done it before, but 80lbs from where I was and I wasn't happy then with the weight, but at least it was on the right side of the 200.
So, when the snow finally (mostly) melted, I started walking again. It has been 10 days. I have lost 10lbs. Not a bad start, considering I haven't made a drastic change to the exercising like I did last time. I do minimal to no isometric exercises and only made it up to an hour long walk the past 3 days. yesterday I started doing some interval prints on Thornbrough. Today, I did 2 interval sprints on Thornbrough and 1 on Mount Pleasant. I hope to do the 2 on Thornbrough tomorrow and add another one on Mount Pleasant. I think it's coming off faster this time because I have even mroe to come off. I don't know. I know that it has gone from 0 to 90 out of a hundred for me in only a coupel of days. I am obsessed with getting up and going out for a walk in the morning. I didn't get up early enough on Sunday to get one in before church and I was an absolute bitch for the whole day. I finally took off around 6:30pm and did only a half hour, but super intensive walk with 3 major hills.
I am now obsessed with a couple of goals. I want to run the entire length of thornbrough by April 8th. I want to loose another 10lbs by April 9th, so I can say I lost 20lbs before my first adjudication gig. That was my goal back in November - lose 20lbs and did absolutely NOTHING toward the goal until March 21st. I am obsessed with making 20lbs in 3 weeks. The lifestyle coach last time said rule of thumb is 10lbs = 1 size in clothing. So far, she's quite right. My 5X shirts are more than baggy and my 4X shirts are starting to get baggy too. The pants are falling off in the 22s that I had been tight in January. The 20 Canadians are just right. The 18 Americans are just right to loose, depending on how much I sit.
I have been tryign to eat better - more veggies and less refined sugars. Today I had major gastro-intestinal issues, which I had the last time I got on one of these kicks. Should be interesting to see how that settles itself out or if it does because that was a problem the whole time last time.
So, I realize that this will not be easy to keep up over the month of festivals - the 2 that I am adjudicating at as well as the 2 week long one here because when you are away from home, you eat out. The festivals that are paying for my room also want me to eat at the hotel restaurant and charge it to the room, which they will then pay. That's not exactly healthy. So, we'll see. I'm hoping that I will at least be able to get in 1 good walk a day while away, even if I have to wake up way too early to be human. :)
So far, I'm enjoying my exercise time. That's a first. We'll see if it lasts. All I know is that I have to do something and I have to do it now. I should have done it before, but 80lbs from where I was and I wasn't happy then with the weight, but at least it was on the right side of the 200.
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