Friday, March 13, 2009
heartbroken
I am sitting here absolutely heartbroken.
I saw something on facebook the other day that made me do a double take. An old friend of mine in Hfx that I taught with changed his relationship status from married to single.
Couldn't quite figure it out as I knew that he and his wife would never have gotten divorced. They had already been through so much together - they lost a son a few months after being born about 25 years ago and then they were in a car accident around 10 years ago and their eldest son was killed and my friend was very badly injured. His wife and other son were not badly injured.
They made it through that and actually came closer together as a family unit because of it (the son who lived was the "troublesome son" and he turned himself right around after the accident).
I went back to my friend's page tonight and the relationship status change had been deleted from his profile and there was simply nothing there BUT there were 3 new pictures posted and a link to some "Cruise 2009" pictures.
The 3 new pictures were super odd. They were pics of him and his wife on their 2nd honeymoon, then one of his wife with the son who had been killed when he was about 6 and then one of his wife with the youngest when he was maybe 3. Just weird to say he's single, then put up pictures of his wife when everyone was so much younger. She was never one to take pictures. I don't think I actually have one of her now that I think back.
I then went to the cruise pictures and it was my friend and his son and another older couple. WTF? Couldn't figure out what the hell was going on. Then I clued in... the only possible thing to explain it was simply unthinkable.
I googled her name and obituary...
It came right up.
She passed away on christmas eve 2008.
I am simply stunned and heartbroken.
I don't know how ML is putting one foot in front of the other or AL for that matter! I can't do anything for them in the physical world. He wouldn't want anyone to anyway and he is obviously to the point of acceptance.
All I can do is try to digest it and pray.
I also just realied...it is this week...I'd go so far as to say today to the DAY that the accident happened. They were heading to Sugarloaf for march break for Skiing and NS always has a later march Break than NB does.
OMG!! 10 years ago this week... At least I can believe that mom and sons are happy together on the other side.
Absolutely heartbroken.
I saw something on facebook the other day that made me do a double take. An old friend of mine in Hfx that I taught with changed his relationship status from married to single.
Couldn't quite figure it out as I knew that he and his wife would never have gotten divorced. They had already been through so much together - they lost a son a few months after being born about 25 years ago and then they were in a car accident around 10 years ago and their eldest son was killed and my friend was very badly injured. His wife and other son were not badly injured.
They made it through that and actually came closer together as a family unit because of it (the son who lived was the "troublesome son" and he turned himself right around after the accident).
I went back to my friend's page tonight and the relationship status change had been deleted from his profile and there was simply nothing there BUT there were 3 new pictures posted and a link to some "Cruise 2009" pictures.
The 3 new pictures were super odd. They were pics of him and his wife on their 2nd honeymoon, then one of his wife with the son who had been killed when he was about 6 and then one of his wife with the youngest when he was maybe 3. Just weird to say he's single, then put up pictures of his wife when everyone was so much younger. She was never one to take pictures. I don't think I actually have one of her now that I think back.
I then went to the cruise pictures and it was my friend and his son and another older couple. WTF? Couldn't figure out what the hell was going on. Then I clued in... the only possible thing to explain it was simply unthinkable.
I googled her name and obituary...
It came right up.
She passed away on christmas eve 2008.
I am simply stunned and heartbroken.
I don't know how ML is putting one foot in front of the other or AL for that matter! I can't do anything for them in the physical world. He wouldn't want anyone to anyway and he is obviously to the point of acceptance.
All I can do is try to digest it and pray.
I also just realied...it is this week...I'd go so far as to say today to the DAY that the accident happened. They were heading to Sugarloaf for march break for Skiing and NS always has a later march Break than NB does.
OMG!! 10 years ago this week... At least I can believe that mom and sons are happy together on the other side.
Absolutely heartbroken.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Noticed an alarming trend
I've noticed an alarming trend. I don't finish anything to the end and I'm a sucky friend.
I want to have the psychic level 1 class put on the psychic tea, and have even previously discussed dates and time for the re-grouping of said class as well as a date and time for the event itself, yet some of those dates have come and gone and nothing has happened.
I started putting together my own music book for beginning piano students. I got approximately 50 pages in and havent' touched it in about a month!
I want to put on an Introduction to Tarot course. I have had it outlined for 2 weeks and didn't do anything with the outline until today. I started to work on filling in some blanks and getting the matrials together, ran in to a small road block and left it and I don't see me going back to it anytime soon.
Is it simply apathy? Am I adult ADHD? Am I simply a slack-assed loser? I am unsure. I'm unsure if it matters! LOL!!
I have also realized I am a horrible friend!
There are "friends" that I haven't seen since the fall - haven't seen or even spoken to.
There are "friends" that have wanted to visit Van and I and yet we never agree to a date. I think we even ignored the last request completely.
There are "friends" that I see somewhat regularly taht I don't really want to see as much as these other "friends", but I don't have to make the effort to see them - they cross my path, so that's why I see them somewhat regularly instead.
There are "friends" that I would like to have over for a visit, but wonder if they would think after all this time elapsing between visits if I'm just looking for something from them. Isn't that usually why you hear from people after a long period of time? The would be my first thought.
Perhaps it's SAD. This constant snow storms and shovelling really has got me down.
Perhaps it's the unknown that is stopping me - unknown living quarters, unknown financial situations and unknown whether if I go to all the work of putting something together and putting it to the public if it would even be accepted or wanted.
Perhaps it's just time for a nap!
I want to have the psychic level 1 class put on the psychic tea, and have even previously discussed dates and time for the re-grouping of said class as well as a date and time for the event itself, yet some of those dates have come and gone and nothing has happened.
I started putting together my own music book for beginning piano students. I got approximately 50 pages in and havent' touched it in about a month!
I want to put on an Introduction to Tarot course. I have had it outlined for 2 weeks and didn't do anything with the outline until today. I started to work on filling in some blanks and getting the matrials together, ran in to a small road block and left it and I don't see me going back to it anytime soon.
Is it simply apathy? Am I adult ADHD? Am I simply a slack-assed loser? I am unsure. I'm unsure if it matters! LOL!!
I have also realized I am a horrible friend!
There are "friends" that I haven't seen since the fall - haven't seen or even spoken to.
There are "friends" that have wanted to visit Van and I and yet we never agree to a date. I think we even ignored the last request completely.
There are "friends" that I see somewhat regularly taht I don't really want to see as much as these other "friends", but I don't have to make the effort to see them - they cross my path, so that's why I see them somewhat regularly instead.
There are "friends" that I would like to have over for a visit, but wonder if they would think after all this time elapsing between visits if I'm just looking for something from them. Isn't that usually why you hear from people after a long period of time? The would be my first thought.
Perhaps it's SAD. This constant snow storms and shovelling really has got me down.
Perhaps it's the unknown that is stopping me - unknown living quarters, unknown financial situations and unknown whether if I go to all the work of putting something together and putting it to the public if it would even be accepted or wanted.
Perhaps it's just time for a nap!
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